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Well, I'm sure @Ael will enjoy it.
Oh, it's always interesting to see what normal things people can put into a special box these days.
I can enjoy some of that too.
 
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02:47
I see your hostility has grown since last we talked. :(
Good night.
 
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Q: Searching for some Advice for finding my woman type via the internet!

el-ssI am searching for some Advices to find my woman type via the internet for long distance friendship or dating. I am an electrical engineer and 37 years old Iranian boy and have not girlfriend!!!. So I tried some sites like badoo site for dating and as you can see nobody answered my messages via t...

 
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hi
15:23
Hey :) boring Sunday today here too ;)
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Q: Thank you note without thank you

James KingWhen I send a gift to my friend, she responds with an email which looks like a thank you note but doesn't actually contain the words "thank you", or any words of gratitude. She might respond with "What a lovely gift" or "I'm very flattered". This seems impolite to me. When I asked about it she sa...

 
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18:33
@lila i see :)
 
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21:01
@brug Oh, hey stranger!
@Ael Hey! o/
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@brug I want to ask "how are you doing" out of politeness but what I really want is to talk to you about how I am doing :p
Great! I am fine. So let's move on to you!
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@brug And yeah, that's a nice bingo you have here :D If you want, I know some autistic facebook group who would enjoy it?
Sure!
I'm in a queer ND Discord server too. I know you don't do Discord, but if you ever wanna check it out let me know.
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21:07
@brug :D I am mostly fine, but my mother just had some terrible back pain this afternoon and we had to call the emergency services. She got some morphine, but she is still laying on the kitchen floor (with pillows and blankets) and wasn't/isn't even able to go to the bathroom. So basically: this afternoon was full of things and more tiring than a regular afternoon and I will probably be a mess tomorrow but, hopefully my mother will be better by then (she just took some other drugs)
ohh wow. Yeah, that sounds like a lot.
I hope she gets better.
Do you know what caused the pain?
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Also, the President didn't talk about the covid. No one said anything even though the ministers are saying that "what we are doing now isn't enough" and I wish I could go to holidays but I don't dare plan them because I'm convinced that we will have a lockdown before two weeks even though they don't want to announce anything yet (but the gouvernement keep having "emergency meeting" and it really doesn't look good)
:(
We had a couple attempted coups
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@brug She did some sport this morning. She didn't fall or anything and was fine afterward but the doctor said she probably didn't feel the pain when the muscles were "hot" but know that they are cold, that's why she is in pain
@brug Oh yeah, I heard about that, that's not good either :/
I hope that is all it is and it passes.
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21:12
I hope that too
@Ael At least they weren't successful. I was pretty worried for a little while there.
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:/ <3
And how is your health and energy?
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Well, apparently my tiredness is giving me back pain. So that way I stay all my days laying in bed (remote working, reading, on my phone or on my computer). I will have some exams link to my tiredness in two weeks and will have the results 3 weeks later after that. And if they don't find anything, I will have to find another doctor because mine is useless (unless I have a cold or some other "basic" stuff in which case he does provide the drugs and the "no work certificate" without any issue)
@Ael Do you know the root cause? Exercise by itself shouldn't cause that...
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21:19
@Mithical No. She really didn't do anything out of her ordinary today. But she will do a scan this week. So hopefully we will know more by then
:| good luck
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Thank you both :)
@Ael Oof. I'm sorry. I hope you manage to get to the bottom of it one day!
<3
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Hopefully, my mother will be able to walk again by tomorrow. Otherwise, she might need to be hospitalized
@brug <3
@brug Yeah, hopefully. But I know it can take several years and it's kind of been two already (but "only" 6 months since I finally figured that my depression wasn't the cause for my tiredness since I basically don't really have depression anymore)
21:24
Well, not having depression anymore is still a positive.
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Oh yeah, that is most definitively a great improvement!
I've been way less dysphoric, so a lot of selfies.
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@brug I think I notice the selfies :D In any case, I'm really glad for you <3
It's amazing how relieving not hating yourself can be.
@Ael I think you do too. My style is still a little childish but I never got to be a little girl ;p
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@brug Ah, that would explain why your last picture was so much PINK :p And, IMO, nothing wrong with having a childish style. People should be able to dress however they want without fearing other people judgment (yes, I really want to be able to go to work wearing my softest pajamas)
21:34
Pink goes good with my pasty complexion and red hair.
But also Pink :hug:
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@brug I really can't say that I share your love of pink, but I totally understand it. I, personally, always hated this color because pink is a "girl" color. Now, I try to appreciate it again, but it's hard
Well yeah. I get that. I am embracing it because I was not allowed to when I was younger. Pink and Purple were for girls. I had to stay away.
But had I the opposite experience I feel I would feel differently about it.
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I definitively always loved purple though. Even though my favorite colors now are green and blue
@brug Yeah, that's exactly why I hated it. I WILL NOT OBEY YOUR SOCIAL RULES!!!
SAME!
Well, except that now I am obeying. perhaps even overly performatively.
Over correction can be a thing.
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@brug That's fine if you do and that's fine if you don't. As long as it makes you happy, I say "Go for it!"
21:49
What about your own journey through expression? I don't know if we've ever talked about that in depth.
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@brug I don't think we did talk about this indeed. But basically: I have short hair now but I still hate cutting them so they are often longueur than I wish they will be. I have a collection of amazing t-shirt but only one masculine long sleeve shirt. And that's it. I don't have enough pants (also because I gain back some weight). I don't have the vests I wish, nor the coat (the one I have is very cool but also screams "woman"), nor the shoes.
I wish I could be able to completly dress up in a "men" way (especially a "hot" men way :p) but it's not the case. And I don't really want to buy new stuff when the old ones are still ok. But I also can't really buy new stuff because of the tiredness anyway so... (I would buy them online but with my sensitivity to touch, I really need to try it on first)
But also, I don't think I want to go on T (because, really, I don't want to need to shave x) ) and I don't think I want to do surgery even though I wish my boobs were smaller (I'm terrified of blood, so that partially explain why I don't want surgery ^^)
I buy online and return if it is uncomfortable.
But with the tiredness that may require too many spoons.
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Yeah, returning something is just too much for me :(
Maybe if you bought one thing at a time. It might take a long time but better than nothing :shrug:?
Fair.
@Ael Does binding help? You don't have to answer if you don't want.
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22:05
@brug Binding with my sensitivity to touch is just a no go. I mean, even wearing a bra is too much for me, so... But my boobs aren't a huge issue anyway. They are annoying but since I'm wearing very large things they are relatively easy to forget
(And I don't do sport anymore, so they aren't an issue for that as well)
ahh. okay.
That makes sense.
I'm glad it isn't too much of an issue. Sorry there are no easy solutions.
I'm sure you spent way more time thinking about it than I have...
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I can't really go to a swimming pool though. In France, most "inside" swimming pool have a rule against UV t-shirt and, well, I don't want to be wearing something more "feminine" and I don't want to be wearing nothing here either
UV t-shirt?
I just bought my first swimsuit but I would never wear it in public.
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@brug Sun t-shirt? To avoid sun-burn
ahh we call them rashguards.
wierd to have a rule against them.
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22:11
@brug Yeah, I imagine you have issues on your own regarding that ^^ But maybe you could wear it at the beach one day?
Hopefully one day. I am looking into surgeons.
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@brug We also have a rule against "bath shorts". You, USA people, would be scandalized at how little we wear in a swimming pool x) Men have to wear something like this: this And let me tell you: you can guess everything x)
The idea is to prevent people from using stuff they wear outside, so it's cleanner
@Ael Not Found
But that sux for anyone who isn't comfortable.
@Ael 😏
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22:18
@brug Yeah, that's really not a great policy for anyone who isn't comfortable with their body. And I think it also prevents muslim woman from going to the swimming pool
@brug x)
What I bought is rather revealing. But my problems are more systemic than anything. It would bother me less if I didn't have to fear assault.
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@brug I understand :/
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Oh, pin-up! (and in pink/purple too! :p )
Ok, the pictures who go with the product are ridiculous x)
I mean, look at this second one! x)
What, you don't wear heavy makeup to the beach?
Or are you referring to being airbrush skinny.
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22:26
At this point, I find the pose and expression more disturbing. Like, are you gonna make out with the photographer right here, or something?
ohh yeah. it is rather overtly sexual.
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I'm gonna head to dream-land now. Have a nice end of Sunday (I said while trying not to cry because tomorrow is Monday and I will have to work :'( )
@Ael G'night!
It was nice talking again. I hope work isn't too stressful tomorrow.

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