I'm just kidding. It didn't change my life at all and, despite a really bizarre-and-pitoresque experience of suddenly feeling like I was in Japan, 99% of it was stuff I didn't have interest ofr
> suddenly feeling like I was in Japan
I mean it, the speakers played only japanese music, and all labels were in japanese
So, basically a very long time ago, the japanese decided to take over asia.
they for some reason were complete asses to the chinese - there were a handful of massacres here, and in china, and they did pretty gruesome Chemical and Biological experiments in china, and the koreans...
@ThatBrazilianGuy For more relevant background, please see this open letter. I've had a long history of disrupting chat. Despite some improvements, the issues are far from being totally resolved.
@bwDraco If you're still doing the Benjamin Franklin-style journal of issues, I think you might want to follow his style exactly - he only made Boolean marks in each category, rather than cataloging his failures - I suspect that might be a critical aspect
@bwDraco I can understand. I had similar feelings on the last week on school this june. I had the stress of both exams and moderator nomination, I was acting offensively against people. Taking some time off (and removing my nomination) until my stress levels stabilized helped :)
So, going forward, I'm going to be implementing changes to ensure safer behavior by assuming that misbehavior is an open possibility at all times no matter my state of mind.
I really admire you, @JourneymanGeek. I really do.
Thank you for helping.
Some changes have already been in the works, and I hope to deliver them over the next few days and weeks. I want to make improvements that me and the community can be proud of.
@bwDraco my mistake usually is thinking so too. Dropping that idea (mine was more along the lines of "I'm perfect and everything I do is perfect" - dropping wasn't easy, but getting tons of people point out my flaws in an election, was helpful and traumatic)... was kind of a bad idea because I don't feel confident about nearly anything anymore, however that allows me to think about stuff more, well, rationally. Try not to force yourself to do stuff. Try to think about what you do
@arda I actually kinda felt the reverse. Its a mix or imposter syndrome and realising I'm only 'human' and the 'virtues' that lead people to vote for me are things that I had anyway
Other than the mighty modhammer of spam-smiting. polishes
> Memento mori ("remember that you have to die")[2] is a Latin expression, originating from a practice common in Ancient Rome; as a general came back victorious from a battle, and during his parade ("Triumph") received compliments and honors from the crowd of citizens, he ran the risk of falling victim to haughtiness and delusions of grandeur; to avoid it, a slave stationed behind him would say "Respice post te. Hominem te memento"
@bwDraco In my experience, it sometimes is - I can pressure myself into finishing a project to awesomeness by not telling anyone about it until it's done
So, after some thought, I've decided I'm going to start by making an adjustment to my decision-making process. I will stop assuming that everything I try to do will succeed as intended and start assuming that I may be wrong.
I really can't help but think that this incident has led me to break new ground and make real progress after all this time.
I'll still be proud—but not haughty or overconfident. Pride must be rooted in realistic abilities and actual achievements, not speculative assumptions regarding whether I can succeed on something.
If you remember the "CEO" wake-up time experiments, I'm going to state that the experiment was made on an unrealistic assumption that I could fall asleep as early as 9 pm and wake up as early as 5 am the next day without the need to gradually adjust.
That, too, was done on overconfidence. This will no longer be allowed.
to be blunt, its a symptom of the attention seeking behavior that's the root of your problems with other folk - you're constantly telling people you are changing, when the need to get attention is what's causing most of these issues, and telling people you will change is a way to get attention
I've actually thought about this and found a relationship between hubris and attention-seeking, and addressing the hubris issue will probably reduce the attention-seeking behavior.
You are seeking attention saying that you aren't a not-so-good person as some people think and I understand that and I know that you don't have any ill intents, but maybe you should take some time before you are sure that you have changed. You keeping posting that you have changed or are changing will only take how much they believe you lower.
When I first signed up on a Stack Exchange site and got a profile image, it was this one (see my current user card):
Later, I got Area 51 and SEDE profiles, and my user image there was a different identicon. Because reasons I already know. I would have a picture of it, but that's the problem....
My network-wide gravatar identicon used to be a pleasant blue, now it's bright green. I didn't change my email. Did Stack Exchange change its email hashing algorithm or something?
Here's my scenario: I'm a developer that inherited (unbeknownst to me) three servers located within my office. I also inherited the job of being the admin of the servers with a distinct lack of server administration knowledge and google / ServerFault as a reference point. Luckily, I've never actu...