15:14
no there's no drama, I just asked 2 new questions on arqade for a game that just came out, saw there is no tag description and I could add it, then I remembered what happens when someone doesn't like how it's phrased, edit disputes, etc
just anxiety and general unpleasantness
remembered my usual experience on meta…
you know sometimes you very weakly, for 2 seconds want to do some good in the world, but then it turns out the world hates you for it and labels you a bad person for even trying
some people give up doing these good things rather quickly, but it takes me a couple hundred attempts
even then I seem to have reached my limit
this might again be one of those periods where I'm done thinking about SE for a while
more bad comes out of it than good for me personally, and it's all I can think about
I just want to feel good and I can't feel anyone else benefitting from my actions through my emotional sorrows
it's not a strong negative emotion, I just feel annoyed but it's been so much of this little annoyance for so long that all in all it's been too long and too much
I'm not following the most popular series, not normally, not these days especially
I don't want to see spoilers for the few things I still care about
I'm not interested in 99% of the rest at all
I've been solving some of my problems and so far I think it's been going good
I want to limit the sources of annoyance and I'm feeling like I should limit my SE interaction to a minimum
I'm sorry if anyone is upset by the distinct lack of your favorite professor of wacky gadgets but I'm sure you understand what I'm talking about
and discord is just not feeling friendly to me at all for whatever reason
I'm not going away forever, as usual, you know how it goes with me every once in a while
you can still ping me if something happens to Taisho, I'll probably see it within a week or so
maybe I need a proper vacation from my all of my usual stuff, after all I haven't had a proper vacation in a very long time