11:36 PM
Can't sleep. Thinking a bit too fast. This whole story affecting me too much and now I really understand why.
I had a father that used arguments to control me and my brother when I was a teen. He used to need to prove points and get us to agree with him. He used every possible abusive mean: aggressiveness, lies, etc. he is paranoiac and antisemitic and tried to convince us of conspiracy theories.
We were young and he was a reference to us. When I grew up and realized that I started to open up my disagreement. This affected our relationship greatly. He was OK father outside that.
Until recently I avoided all kind of political debates and stuff because I feared the aggressiveness. But I really just made the connection.
So to everybody I'm really sorry if I made erratic statements about violence etc. but I had to sort a few issues with myself.