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Anonymous
12:00 PM
I mean at one point she must have loved you. Nobody can just fake love like that over that many years.
 
@ThoriumBR Here is the gist of it: One guy doesn't know statistics and we made fun of him, and my ex was abusive
 
Anonymous
But I am not someone who accepts people are "just like this" that's bullshit lazy psychology lol
 
@J.J I genuinely don't feel like she loved me
 
Anonymous
Maybe she didn't, I guess you can never know.
 
I feel like she saw me as someone gullible who would provide for her
That's why she said she was going to do all these things like getting a job or such - because she thought that's what I wanted to hear
 
Anonymous
12:01 PM
Yeah, that is definitely possible I guess.
 
Anonymous
It's uh, an insane situation for sure and it could be for a million reasons.
 
Anonymous
I guess you'll never know at the end of the day.
 
She stalked the DMZ too
 
Anonymous
Really?
 
Anonymous
Yikes.
 
12:02 PM
Yeah, I'm sure @ConorMancone remembers
We were talking about Touhou
And how a character someone made for the witerbash knitting looked like Sakuya Izayoi
Let me find the post real quick
I said "Look at the character on the left"
 
Anonymous
Let me guess, she got mad at this?
 
Then look at this
Does the image show?
 
Anonymous
Yeah
 
@MechMK1 I got to that question, and probability really isn't well understood by almost everyone. because it's possible does not follow that will ever happen
 
@ThoriumBR Indeed
@J.J So yeah, silver hair, knife, white and blue...
And she IMMEDIATELY sent me a text message if I was still "into that japanese stuff"
 
Anonymous
12:05 PM
lmfao.
 
Like, no even a minute later
 
Anonymous
wtf.
 
I asked "Why do you ask?"
 
but most people are "but it's possible!"
like the guy on an answer of mine about hackers buying routers, backdooring them, returning to the factory, refurbish, sell them on amazon, and you buy it and get attacked...
 
And she didn't want to say "Because I saw you post in the DMZ"
@ThoriumBR "So you say there is a chance"
She also once went through my PC
At least, once that I know of
I started locking it really fucking quick
 
Anonymous
12:07 PM
It is good you know these things are not healthy at least. Some guys don't even know that.
 
It started with small things
And I made excuses for that
Until they got bigger and bigger
During the end of 2019, I was basically just looking for a way to get out
Only took me more than half a year
 
Anonymous
Yeah I mean, it is a lot easier to make excuses when you are IN that situation.
 
Anonymous
It's a lot easier from the outside of course, always.
 
Of course it's easy from the outside
I saw that from my mom as well, when she divorced my father
"But why did you never say anything?"
"Because he just didn't want to listen"
The amount of people who think abusive relationships are easy to solve are so blissfully unaware, and I hope for their sake they never have to gain that experience firsthand.
 
Anonymous
Yup.
 
Anonymous
12:10 PM
You're 100% right.
 
But well, luckily that gal convinced me that I as a privileged white male can't even be abused
So phew, good thing I dodged that bullet
 
Anonymous
lmfao.
 
lucky you!
 
I can't imagine what that relationship would have been like had I not had my magical privilege armor
 
and now you earned 2 things: how to recognize the same patterns later, and when you find a good girl you have something to compare to... "man, she is mad, but she is not crazy like the other..."
 
Anonymous
12:11 PM
Don't worry Mech, I got convinced I'm racist by a white girl so you're not the only one who got jebaited into believing something you don't LUL
 
Anonymous
Context for future readers: my brain being more sexually attracted to women of middle-eastern origin is racist supposedly.
 
I don't really think I will ever find someone, unless I a.) get extremely lucky or b.) some woman for some reason really lowers her standards by about 200%
@J.J Yeah, because reasons
 
/me said the same, like, a hundred times...
 
I mean, look at me, I don't go to any social events, and even if I would, I would have no clue about how to behave at them.
 
now I have a wife, 3 kids, and still didn't figured out why...
 
12:14 PM
Looks like you got lucky :D
I mean, if I find someone, sure. But I doubt I will, to be honest
 
yeah... I went to church every week, so people knew I existed. but if you don't go out, well... nobody will show up in your door
 
Anonymous
Yeah, sadly people won't show up at your door with that said. I met my girlfriend online, I met my girlfriend before my current one online too. You don't have to go out necessarily. I should also note that wasn't via dating apps.
 
Anonymous
Also @MechMK1 aren't you like 24? You have a damn long while before it could be considered "too late".
 
@J.J 26 actually, I think
Let me check
Yeah 26
 
Anonymous
26. Still, a lot of years before it is considered "too late".
 
12:18 PM
I know, but...eh, as I said, no social skills
 
Anonymous
If I wasn't in this relationship I would also still be single at 26 I can assure you of that 100%.
 
Anonymous
Because like I said, I didn't actually want a relationship, at all.
 
Lucky you then :D
 
Anonymous
Yeah, I get that. I don't have good social skills either.
 
26 and thinks is too late? I have a friend that got first married at 54...
 
12:19 PM
I'm not saying it's too late
 
my brother found his wife online too, I never had much luck online...
 
I just don't think it will hapen
 
all my girlfriends were found IRL
 
I tried online dating too, but...ehh, no luck
 
Anonymous
Well, just keep working on yourself Mech is all I'll advise.
 
12:20 PM
I'll do my best
Why be fat and ugly when I can just be ugly, right?
 
Anonymous
Lose what weight you wanna lose and you'll probably notice that your mindset of whether your ugly shifts significantly.
 
the amount of girls I know are dating ugly fat guys... after 35, girls usually don't go for looks
 
Anonymous
Most girls in their mid 20s dont either.
 
they will start thinking on safety
 
I had my very first date when I was 26 (although my wife and I still argue about whether or not we were actually dating then)
So you're ahead of where I was at your age!
 
12:22 PM
if you can care for them, protect them... not sleep with them and let them pay the bills for you
 
Anonymous
Yeah honestly Mech, I am sure you know this but a lot of it is in your head from your 5 years of abuse.
 
Anonymous
I hope you know that anyways
 
Anonymous
You have no confidence because of your ex. She made you feel worthless daily and now shes gone your own brain is taking her position.
 
@J.J That is exactly what happens in such cases
 
I thought the same after being dating for 4 years, engaged, and my ex left me 4 months before the planned wedding for the womanizer friend I warned her about...
 
Anonymous
12:24 PM
That's really the truth. You're probably not ugly and if you are I can bet you there are things you can do right now or within a few weeks which make you feel better about yourself.
 
I'll try my best to feel better
 
Anonymous
and from there you just keep going on crushing insecurities.
 
So on a slightly different note, I have to share this ridiculous thing that my wife just showed me.
 
But honestly, my looks are a lost cause
I'm bald at 26
Thanks genetics
 
Anonymous
Well let me say this lots of women like bald guys
 
12:24 PM
I am 1.94m and weight 55kg... with clothes, shoes, phone...
 
Anonymous
especially if you can grow facial hair
 
people say that when I get vaccinations, the needle crosses me over...
 
My wife is in this "large families" facebook group. Someone foolishly put a poll in the group asking who everyone was planning on voting for. Due to weird correlations with politics, I wasn't surprised to learn that twice as many people in that group are planning to vote for Trump over Biden
 
Anonymous
and mech ngl i always thought i was ugly and then i got interested in fashion and realised that 90% of looking "appealing" is jsut down to basic grooming, personality and how you dress and act.
 
Anonymous
its really easy to get stuck in the cycle so i do understand you genuinely
 
12:26 PM
However, this apparently was a surprise to a mom in there, who decided to Flame the whole group. She made a new group called "liberallargefamilies", posted a link to it on the large family group, and then said everyone that didn't want to be a part of all the "Trump supporting racists" should go join her new group
WTF????
 
Yeah, I hope one day I get out of the cycle of feeling inadequate
 
Anonymous
Yeah, I am not saying it is easy. But it ultimately starts with you.
 
Apparently wanting to vote for Trump is now enough for you to be a racist asshole and not worth talking to....
 
@ConorMancone "The Trump supporting Racists" - coincidentally - is also the name of my band
 
@MechMK1 lol, I'd listen to a band with that name
 
Anonymous
12:26 PM
Career wise I still feel inadequate. But I did solve all my feelings of inadequacy when it comes to how I look, etc.
 
Anonymous
Lets put it this way @MechMK1
 
Anonymous
if you can survive a 5 year relationship like that
 
Anonymous
you can make yourself believe you're attractive
 
Anonymous
100% lmfao
 
@J.J I'll do my best
 
Anonymous
12:27 PM
what you went through vs that are like so far in terms of difficulty :D
 
@ConorMancone Our first album - Make Music Racist Again - is out soon
 
@MechMK1 I want this to be a thing sooooo badly
 
I just wish I could go back in time to stop myself
Also, since we're at controversial opinions, what's your opinion on Netflix' "Cuties"?
 
Anonymous
I heard about all of that but I never looked at it properly to understand the issue.
 
Anonymous
By the way just another question I had for you @MechMK1 since you said you're losing weight. Have you considered getting a personal trainer?
 
12:33 PM
Not really. I am doing fine with workout at home and better eating habits
 
Anonymous
I meant more for the fact that you said you want someone in your life who makes you feel like you're worth something a personal trainer is way more than just a workout and eating coach.
 
Anonymous
A good PT will really make you feel like what you're doing is worth it and especially when you feel like its all pointless and you want some dopmaine from someone telling you you're doing good, a good PT will do all of that.
 
Anonymous
just a thought. it helped me a lot even outside of the gym and food.
 
Ehh, not sure if that would be a good idea for me
 
Anonymous
Fair enough. I just think based on what you told me you could really do with someone to give you some positive reinforcement other than yourself :)
 
12:36 PM
I'll keep it in mind
 
Anonymous
:)
 
I heard about Cuties, companies keep plastering it everywhere, but I didn't even bothered to read about it
 
Anonymous
Let me know how your weight loss goes, honestly. 4KG already is A LOT.
 
not my kind of movie
 
Anonymous
I hope you are proud of it.
 
12:37 PM
@J.J I am
 
Anonymous
Glad to hear that :)
 
I believe it's easier to you to lose 4kg than to me gain 4kg
 
Also, interesting question: Who do you think will win the US presidential election?

Not who you'd vote for or who you'd want to win, but who do you think will win?
 
Anonymous
I honestly have no idea.
 
Anonymous
I've turned the news off.
 
Anonymous
12:42 PM
Pretty much totally off.
 
I don't care... I don't even care about our own elections
 
Ah yes, the doomer memes are setting in
 
elections are weird this times. people vote for the party no matter how bad the party is
and down here, people choose the guy with better promises, even if the promises cannot be fulfilled even if the gates of heavens opened and dollars fell from the sky in pallets...
like, 2 elections ago Dilma (the then president trying a reelection) accused the opposing candidate of wanting to cut back rights and increase taxes, and she would never do that. exact one day after she got reelected she cut back unemployment rights and increased taxes... and nobody cared
 
12:59 PM
I guess the thing in democracy is the common folks don't care about politics, and their vote counts as much as everyone else's.
So if you were a politician, would you cater to the minority who actually cares, or the overwhelming majority who just vote for bullshit reasons?
 
If i were a politician
It would have been different
Are you asking about gaining maximum power or good for the state/country
>
 
I kinda like Asimov's approach to that on "I, Robot"... for those who haven't read it yet, do it... it's a good book
it basically have robots calculating the economy so well that every single company and government would send the plans to the robots and they would send back adjusts, they implemented the plan as the robots said, and the best possible outcome would be true
as the robots are directed by the famous three laws, they would never ever create an outcome that would damage any human, so things were good
10 years ago I wrote an article I don't know where about replacing the democracy by the "algoritocracy", where algorithms would rule.. but today I would be against that
I've worked with AI in a couple "real world" projects, and I saw biases on those algorithms that you cannot easily remove without adding bias to the other side. and I saw algorithms being unfair or downright broken and those affected by them have no recourse
 
@ThoriumBR that's the bits folk do not understand - bad training leads to bad outcomes
They assume it will be fair because "automatic"
 
even good training. there are too many nuances on "real world" problems to quantify
it's like training an AI to look at the logos of the companies and predict the stock price in 10 years
I worked on a project trying to predict the outcome of a plea at the work courts... we got a massive number of processes, and had an AI check those all and predict if the plea should be accepted or not. about 95% were not accepted, and that was expected.... but some accepted ones were so blatantly wrong that we scratched our heads on why the heck the AI accepted those
and we didn't took much time to see why some denied pleas were denied, because of the sheer number of denied ones
and that's the main problem.. if your trading bot did a mistake, you can re-create the scenario, trace the variables and the source code and know why it did what it did... on neural networks you cannot... it's a black box: input-> magic -> output
 
1:19 PM
@ThoriumBR Like YouTube, when they block a video and say it is against community standards
Ask them "What standards?" and they will just shrug their shoulders, because they don't know why their AI made that decision
Because essentially, "Explain to me why the AI made that decision" is an impossible problem
 
and those blocked are left to fight youtube to prove they made a mistake... and got delisted, demonetized, blocked...
 
Yeah, this works because YouTube is essentially a monopoly
 
exact... it is not possible to say "why" the AI made the decision it made
 
YouTube is the AI playground for Google
 
@ThoriumBR This is why, unfortunately, capitalism is the "best" economic system. It's by no means great but an economy is far too complicated to solve with an equation (or computers, or robots, or or AI, or [insert solution here]). Capitalism is like the equivalent of evolution except for economies. It's incredibly wasteful, but progress at least happens overall on average
 
1:21 PM
and that is what makes me fear AI-driven serious things... AI on games are fine, on medicine I don't like.
 
And you want to know what I find fun? EVERYBODY hates them
The left claims YouTube is far-right
The right claims YouTube is far-left
 
Sucks to be stuck there, lol!
 
Yeah, but there are no feasible alternatives
Who the fuck uses vimeo or such?
 
I use youtube, and crunchroll...
vimeo is still around?
 
Or the COPPA disaster...
@ThoriumBR I honestly don't know
So YouTube can tell what kind of demographic you likely belong to; what age, gender, nationality, etc...
And COPPA requires YouTube to not process data of kids (I think 13 or younger)
And funnily enough, YouTube has ways to determine that. I mean, as a content creator, you can see what age range your viewers are in
But what they did instead is to force content creators to define whether or not their content is "for kids" or not.
 
1:25 PM
it's for the "liability deflection"
if someone mis-categorized something, it's not youtube's fault
 
I mean, in some cases, it's blatantly obvious. The AI-generated nursery rhyme videos with titles like "Pregnant Elsa Spiderman Abduction Joker Epic Prank Buried Alive" are clearly for kids (or not for kids, depending on how sane you are still)
Yeah, but here is the problem: How does a content creator know if it's for kids or not?
 
that's why my company requires us to do A LOT of training on what to write to clients, to avoid liability like a plague... or a dozen simultaneous plagues...
 
As a content creator, YouTube just throws you under the bus
When does your video get demonetized? And why?
Who can you appeal to?
 
it's better throw 1000 creators under the bus than 1000 creators throwing youtube under the bus
 
YouTube is by design a black box, and you as a content creator just have to appease the algorithm.
YouTube would literally only have to change one line of code
 
1:27 PM
their house, their rules
 
if(viewer.ageRange == AgeRange.ThirteenOrYounger){ disableTracking(); }
 
algorithms already rule our lives... as creator, you live to satisfy youtube algo. as a facebook user, you post things to appease the algo... twitter? algo....
 
We're honestly fucked, are we not?
We're handing over the keys to global communication to a machine literally nobody understands, nobody can even question
 
@MechMK1 it's not that simple because of the litigation on the US... if a buy 12yo says he is 21 and her mother later sues youtube because he is watching videos for adults, youtube may have to pay EVEN if the guy said he was 21 and not 12...
redirecting the blame to the user shields youtube from that... so they do that on every way possible
 
@ThoriumBR Isn't there the requirement for neutral questions?
Like, you can't have a button that asks "Are you 18 or older?"
You have to ask "How old are you?"
 
1:32 PM
imagine if youtube categorized an isis video briefly posted on the platform as "kid friendly" by mistake, and deleted it 4 seconds later... in that 4 seconds, 10 US kids watched it and had nightmares for eternity (because kids never saw someone being killed on movies)...
their karen moms would sue youtube, because "Youtube said it was kid-friendly"... now we demand psychological treatment for the kid, for us parents, for all relatives, and all their families for 3 or 4 generations...
like when a girl was driving WAY above the allowed speed to get a highspeed on a snapchat filter, obviously wrecked the car and severely injured an innocent guy, and hir family went after snapchat, not after the girl...
 
I think the problem is the US' fucked up values
Of course you go after Snapchat and not the girl. Snapchat has money, the girl does not
 
and youtube have money, the ISIS fighters may have but cannot send money to you in the US... and it's recommended to not get there to collect money from them
here we are having issues with AI and real world problems... in the pandemics, the government is handling out money to those unemployed, with no fixed jobs, or informal ones... but the amount of work needed to categorize all those people means no real people will do that, but the AI
and lots of people aren't receiving that money because AI says they don't qualify, even if the person is an unemployed mother of 5 whose husband died from covid
and some well known singers down here are receiving BRL 600, the amount of gas they spend on their cars when they go shopping...
some of them returned the money when they knew they got it and said it was a mistake on gov side, but some others kept the money and only returned it after public humiliation
 
1:55 PM
Jesus...
Yeah, shocking, AI isn't the solution to all problems
 
it fails faster, and failures are unexpected...
 
2:11 PM
Use AI in your program if you want it to be in a perpetual state of being a beta.
 
I would say "perpetual pre-alpha"
 
Basically
 
it will break all the time in ways you didn't thought it would
and you will not know why..
you reboot, and it works again... like an old car
"solution not found, slap the computer and try again"
 
Anonymous
im so mad
 
Anonymous
i wish i bought more nio shares at $10 ngl
 
Anonymous
2:19 PM
now they're $18 and nobody is recommending them
 
I have such problems at times
Where just...everything is fucked
Windows does not work, it won't even boot anymore, tons of hardware errors
Then it magically works again
When that occurs, I light a candle and say prayers to the machine spirit, praying for forgiveness
 
my linux rebooted 5 minutes before a meeting, to update BIOS...
 
Anonymous
Oh mech if I had a fucking pund for every time something stops working on my work laptop
 
Anonymous
and i contact support and say "this"
 
Anonymous
and then they look at it and its working
 
2:24 PM
finished updating, rebooted, went to grub, rebooted before loading linux again... "that's bad"....
 
Anonymous
... i look like a fucking moron at least twice a week
 
My problems are weird
Either everything works perfectly smooth
Or it's FUCKED
No in-between
 
Anonymous
lol
 
rebooted 3 times and loaded linux fine...
 
To me it's like, I turn on my Pc and I get stuff like BlInitializationFailed 0x0000000000001
Turn it off, turn it back on, same error
Turn it off, turn it back on, same error again
Repeat 3 times
Suddenly, it boots to windows
And then I get a bluescreen
Then I reboot again, the the first error again
Then I boot to windows, and all my audio isn't working anymore and my screen resolution is 640x480x16
 
2:26 PM
looks like you have memory issues, or drivers, or both
 
Reboot, everything works buttersmooth
 
try using linux for a week... if you get weird errors, is hardware... if not, is software
 
I use linux all the time
Just not on my gaming pc
 
like me... but my gaming pc is a thinkpad t430...
 
Hey I have a T480 for work :DDDDD
Thinkbros :D
 
2:28 PM
my work computer is a t490, just arrived
it gets pretty hot... cpu is at 65C with 17% in use...
I cannot put it on my lap because it gets to 80C+ pretty easy
 
My battery is absolutely fucked
Just lasts for 2 hours or so
 
you call that bad? my t430 lasts 5 minutes... barely enough to find an outlet
windows complains that the battery is dead every time I reboot
 
Yeah, this is where it's heading
 
@MechMK1 Vimeo usage seems to be increasing. I see more and more infosec things on there (and on PH, amusingly)
 
and that's the replacement battery
 
2:35 PM
@RoryAlsop I know PH is hosting a lot more non-18+ content
I was joking about it because InRange TV is hosting their stuff there
Imagine the confusion when you search for "penetration" and see just countless videos of ballistics gel tests
 
@MechMK1 Those are great, and also good to send as links for friends
 
i mean I found some really questionable stuff on YouTube as well
 
@MechMK1 or mimikats, responder.py and lockpicking
 
And Twitter. Especially twitter
The fact that I have CSE Reports as a bookmark says a lot about Twitter
It's so fucked up. If you see someone posting child porn on Twitter, you can't report that normally. You have to click report, then click a tiny link that just says "Learn more", scroll half the page down, then click on a link that takes you to a form where you can report it
And the time they take to respond is awful, up to a week or more
 
imagine how many people they have to employ to validate the reports... that would be the perfect job for... an AI!
 
2:46 PM
Not necessarily
When it comes to such matters, there is already a very large database
 
it could detect child porn, prosecute, and even execute the sentences! without human intervention!
jk
 
Because the vast majority of child porn shared online is actually known material, so just checking whether a certain image uploaded is in that database could be done
Though I have no idea what the "correct" way to behave would be
Alerting them that an upload was blocked could get them to destroy the evidence
God I am so glad I don't have to make such decisions
 
I read an interview for someone working as a "report verifier" company for facebook...
man, I would ratter take a pig manure removal job for half the pay instead...
 
I only had 7 or 8 reports, but man was it fucked up
The one with the baby was the worst
Still haunts me in my nightmares
Some humans should be executed immediately, without any due process
 
What's the difference between dig $domain ALL & dig $domain ANY?
 
2:56 PM
@JohnZhau Pretty self-explanatory by the name, right?
ALL returns all record types (A, AAAA, CNAME, TXT, PTR, etc.) and any returns...anything
Like, whatever
 
even invalid records
one of the systems I manage is having networking issues... I went to the console, checked the vswitches, and man... 57PB of data transmitted in 4 months
 
Why tho?
 
I am trying to imagine 57PB of data in 1TB hdds, laid out on the curb...
 
3:12 PM
I mean, just because it was transmitted doesn't mean it was stored
 
another one is close to an exabyte...
in 4 months
 
Jesus...
 
wolfram alpha says it has an average transfer speed of balmy 700Gbps
I believe I counted too many zeroes on the command... 700Gbps average is insane
yeah, too many zeroes... copy-paste, and it's a normal 99.91mbps...
 
4:17 PM
@MechMK1 I see you got sucked into a conversation with JCRM. Some people are just too stubborn and never understand when to quit...
Although now I have to add one more little detail to the conversation...
Do you think I over-did it?
 
 
1 hour later…
5:50 PM
10⁻⁵⁰ is so close to nothing that can be dismissed as impossible...
 
6:42 PM
to be fair, though, you and they are both just arguing semantics
You are correct, and JCRM's point is also correct
 
Yes but mine is more correct :)
If I had a password with 128 bits of entropy, and my account was hacked, the possibility that my password was guessed via brute force would be the absolute last consideration. Is it possible. Of course! It's just not worth any serious consideration.
 
7:03 PM
@ConorMancone agreed
 
7:15 PM
This is what it looks like when I call other people stubborn while also being very stubborn myself :)
 
hahahaha
 
7:59 PM
my tactics when dealing with stubborn people: "you are correct! and that implies that <insert my idea here>, so if we consider <my idea again>, I have nothing else to add and I agree with you"
 
they will only see the "you are correct... I agree with you"
 
8:44 PM
That's a classic
And in fact, instead of going to bed, later I will check out that chat about entropy
 

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