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Anonymous

11:00 AM

and i explained this stor yto her and she was literally mortified like

MechMK1

That's honestly sad

Anonymous

yup

Anonymous

im with her 3 years now

Anonymous

nearly 4 actually

MechMK1

I mean, I'm quite a degenerate, but at least the part of my family I care about knows that :D

Anonymous

11:01 AM

and she was like "so what happens if we get married?"

Anonymous

and i was like "it would be me, 2 friends and then your damily and you

Anonymous

since i couldnt possibly ever bring any of my family lmfao

Anonymous

which reminds me the other day some girl called me racist for being more attracted to middle eastern girls lmfao its like the 4th time thats happened to me

MechMK1

That's really sad.

Ah yes, the "if you are white you're racist for dating a non-white person"

Anonymous

yeah fr fucking sucks

Anonymous

11:02 AM

hahahahahah yeah. "you're tabooing them" another one i hear a lot

MechMK1

"You're fetishizing exotic women"

Anonymous

HAHAHAHHA YUP

MechMK1

You know what my fetish is? A woman who genuinely loves me

I know, I'm a fucking pervert

Anonymous

like yeah of course i am.. I prefer everything about them lmfao

Anonymous

i got so much hate from one girl because i said i find them more attractive

MechMK1

11:04 AM

But I feel like, to all the women I've spoken to recently, it all comes down to money

Anonymous

i love it when white people get offended over things they THINK are racism which arent

MechMK1

Literally, a girl struck up a conversation with me one day, and we just kept talking, and like a week later she said "You have to give me 25 USD per week if you want to keep talking to me"

Anonymous

you know the hilarious thing i spoke to my girlfriend about this and she was like

Anonymous

"firstly 90% of brown girls hate brown guys"

MechMK1

@J.J I love when people in general get offended on behalf of others

Is there anything more patronizing than that?

Anonymous

11:05 AM

"secondly... i am not surprised you prefer us, we're better than those basic white bitches"

Anonymous

i was rolling on the floor lmfao

Anonymous

25 USD a week!?

Anonymous

hahaha

MechMK1

The fact that she asked for any amount is insane

Anonymous

why doesnt she just make a fucking onlyfans or something lol

MechMK1

11:05 AM

"Give me money to keep talking with me" - wtf?

Anonymous

@MechMK1 oh yeah me too meme

MechMK1

What is wrong with people?

Why is everything so fucked?

Anonymous

but yeah my girlfriend who is brown herself, was literally like "of course you prefer us we are way hotter and that girl has no reason to be offended lol"

Anonymous

yet the white girl from this group chat MAD outraged

MechMK1

I don't see a reason to get mad

Anonymous

11:07 AM

its insane.

MechMK1

I honestly don't even know what I want

Anonymous

if i go out with my girlfriend its actually so ridiculous how much people say things about her interracial dating

Anonymous

guys will legit walk up to her and say "thats haram"

Anonymous

like in the fucking street man

MechMK1

I feel like as soon as I raise my standards, I'll be looked down upon like "Look at you you ugly piece of shit. Who would ever want to be with you?"

Anonymous

11:08 AM

i get so tempted to hit them

MechMK1

@J.J That's certainly haram

Anonymous

@MechMK1 yeah ngl

Anonymous

i know lots of guys say this but genuinely my gf is out of my "league"

Anonymous

its a well established fact like. she really is icant explain it without showing you her its jsut something ive accepted

MechMK1

All I want is a woman who shares my interests, who loves me for who I am, yet encourages me to work on my flaws - and in turn whom I could give the world to, spoil in every way i could.

Anonymous

11:09 AM

but girls dont actually care much about that shit lmfao is what i hve learned

Anonymous

@MechMK1 you know something funny?

Anonymous

I dated a girl who was a hacker before my current girlfriend

MechMK1

@J.J A million funny things but most are pretty racist :D

Anonymous

and let me tell you something, we had so much in common it wasn't a good relationship at all

Anonymous

so if you meant you want a hacker gf thats my experience for you :D

MechMK1

11:11 AM

No, not that

Anonymous

funnily me and my current gf dont really share any interests as such. we both like fashion and other than that, we dont share MUCH in common. but we both like to share things WE like so thats kinda how it works for us

MechMK1

Just...you know, someone who enjoys videogames or guns or such

Anonymous

yeah that makes sense. plenty of those girls exist, everywhere.

MechMK1

Not a 100% mirror of myself

Yeah, everywhere, just not here, and I will never meet them

Anonymous

hahah, figures. but yeah, in my case me and my current gf dont really share anything in common like that. but we just expand each others interests on things WE like.

Anonymous

11:13 AM

idk how it works honestly. it kinda made me think that "opposites attract" is quite true. but idk if thats ACTUAL science lol

Anonymous

i think we are just both obsessed with learning even about random shit so

MechMK1

@JCRM Your chance in winning 6 out of 49 is 1 in 13,983,816. Your chance of guessing a password with an entropy of 7776^6 is 1 in 221,073,919,720,733,357,899,776. Your chance of guessing a password with an entropy of 2^128 is 1 in 340,282,366,920,938,463,463,374,607,431,768,211,456. Winning the lottery is easy by comparison. — MechMK1 9 secs ago

God, how can that guy just be so fucking retarded...

Anonymous

lmfao.

Anonymous

Yeah that comment section was painful.

MechMK1

But in regards to the previous topic: I've made my peace with never finding anyone. If it happens, nice, but I don't get my hopes up

Anonymous

11:18 AM

That's good. I mean. that's the best way to be.

MechMK1

@J.J It's quite depressing for me

Anonymous

Personally if this relationship ends up failing I will quite literally never bother dating again, lmfao.

Anonymous

Yeah I get that.

Anonymous

I know it's easy for me to say but... Relationships are overrated.

Anonymous

If I think about all the time, money and shit I went through to be with my girlfriend I have to question whether its really worth it. I mean I love her to death of course

Anonymous

11:19 AM

Ive literally grown up with her

MechMK1

Yeah, in a way they are

Anonymous

but at the same time i dont NEED her and she doesnt NEED me like we both earn good salaries

Anonymous

and we spent nearly 2 years apart like that was HELL

MechMK1

I just wish someone made me feel like I mattered to them

Anonymous

I could have easily NOT had that in my life like

MechMK1

11:20 AM

Yeah, I know what you mean

Anonymous

@MechMK1 yeah i mean thats a feeling that i cant deny is awesome so i dont blame you for feeling like that

Anonymous

its hard for me to say its not worth it because that makes it seem like i dont love her and i do

MechMK1

I'm genuinely happy for you though. Like, please don't feel like I'm jealous or such

Anonymous

i literally have became an adult with this girl

Anonymous

no i dont feel like that at all

Anonymous

11:21 AM

it must suck for you given the amount of time you were in a toxic relationship like i cannot imagine that honestly

MechMK1

I guess it's just easiest for me to meme >tfw no gf and keep it at that

@J.J 5 years, give or take

Anonymous

yeah exactly

Anonymous

so you had 5 years in some fake toxic environment

MechMK1

5 years of constantly walking on eggshells, apologizing, etc....

Anonymous

5 years wasted, basically. when you consider it

MechMK1

11:22 AM

And want to know the funniest thing? She didn't even made me feel loved

Anonymous

and you did all thet things for her that your partner should return

Anonymous

so of course now after its over you're bound to feel this way

MechMK1

I'm not even talking about sex, because that was god fucking awful, but like no genuine love

I was basically just providing her with food, electricity, internet and a bed

Anonymous

yeah sex doesnt solve anything lmfao

MechMK1

Yeah, but it would have been an upside if she had any interest in making me feel good too

One day, after she had an orgasm, she just left the bed and started playing VRchat

Anonymous

11:23 AM

i feel very bad for you that you were in such a situation and its totally okay and normal to feel how you feel

Anonymous

jesus christ...

MechMK1

I felt like I was just a living dildo

Anonymous

yeah it sounds exactly that way

MechMK1

I have another story, if you want to hear

I mean, as long as it works for you

Anonymous

and if you fail at that then the next time its only about them

Anonymous

11:25 AM

works really well but of course you had no such option

Anonymous

and yea hsure shoot

MechMK1

She just managed to make it incredibly unpleasant for me. Like, just the idea of having sex with her became repulsive

So, when we started dating, I wanted to get to know her friends

Anonymous

this is gonna sound very red pill but here goes

MechMK1

Just because I felt like it would be the proper thing to do

Anonymous

A LOT of guys get into relationships for gtd sex like its just true

Anonymous

11:26 AM

and in your case you got NOTHING so i get what you mean

Anonymous

like you basically were a literal fucking provider

MechMK1

Yes, I was

Anonymous

of all things life. like uber, deliveroo, airbnb, lovesense all in one

MechMK1

Yes, everything

"Give me, because I deserve it."

Anonymous

yeah i cant even imagine how fucked that is

MechMK1

11:27 AM

Very

Anonymous

it really sucks that your life was like this for 5 years

MechMK1

And so I met some of the people she considered friends, and we played some games together, etc..

I got along with them pretty well

And then a few weeks later, she told me to delete one of them, because they're no longer friends

So I did.

Then another one, and another one, and another one

Her friend group kept changing, and I couldn't really tell why

So then, fast forward to the time she moved in with me.

It was a thursday, and all the previous days, my day had looked like this:
Work, come home, do household chores, play videogames with her, do more household chores, shower, go to sleep.

And on thursday, my best friend came online, and I told him "Let's play something together. I don't care what, anything you like, let's just play"

So we played Terria for an hour or two

When I was done, my gf started to complain that I never spend time with her

I told her that we did, we played every day as much as I could with her, and ask her if she is seriously jealous of my best friend because I spent two hours with him this week

She then went on Discord and started to complain how I neglected her all week

Funnily enough, I saw the conversation from one guy, since he was typing

Anonymous

My oh my.

MechMK1

And he said he saw me and her playing Dead by Daylight every day this week

He even asked me on Steam what was up with that?

I told him "Between you and me, [she] is batshit insane. She can't differentiate between reality and fiction in her head"

Anonymous

I actually have a question, how did you meet her?

MechMK1

11:33 AM

What did she do? She blocked him, and started going on a long rant how "some friends just turn out to be backstabbers"

Anonymous

Jesus...

MechMK1

We played Overwatch, many years ago

Anonymous

And I'm guessing she seemed very normal?

MechMK1

I way playing players vs. bots since I am a chickenshit when it comes to online games

i saw she was lv 3, (I still assumed it was a dude) and said "Do you want to group up with us? You get 20% more xp that way and I can show you a thing or two"

She then added me on Battle.net, later on steam. We talked a bit, and she was genuinely nice

Like...a COMPLETELY different person

The woman I fell in love with was an angel, always so caring

Which is why I feel like even if I met someone loving and caring, they might just turn out to be abusive

Anonymous

That is so crazy to me how much she just changed.

MechMK1

11:35 AM

I think she just played a role, if oyu get what I mean

Anonymous

Yeah, seems like it.

Anonymous

An act.

MechMK1

Because while she was living wth her father, she kept telling me how awful and abusive he was

When she lived with me, she told others how awful and abusive I was

Anonymous

Yeah it's all too common that abusive behaviours and behaviour types transfer, sadly.

MechMK1

In VRchat, using my VR headset, on the computer I bought for her, using my internet, in my apartment, while drinking the soymilk I bought for her, and eating the chocolate that I bought for myself

Did I tell you the story about the sandwich? :D

Anonymous

11:37 AM

All I can say is you can never really know how a person is going to be, it just takes a lot of time with them. You have to be extra careful really.

MechMK1

That one was really fun

Never been this close to hitting someone. Thankfully, I did not

Anonymous

You did not tell me that either, no.

MechMK1

So i was working in vienna that week. Since I can't take a hotel there, because she would be worried I was going to cheat on her, I had to commute back and forth

Anonymous

This line alone makes me shiver "I can't take a hotel there, because she would be worried I was going to cheat on her".

MechMK1

So my day started at 5:00, left the apartment at 5:30, so I could be in vienna at 8:00, then 8.5 hours of work, then 2.5 hours commute back home, until it was 19:00 (7:00 PM)

While I was in Vienna, she sent me a text message saying "Can you bring me a Sandwich from the grocery store when you come home?"

One sec, battery ran out :D

I replied "No, the grocery store is the other way. And it's 10 minutes away from you, just go there. Or, just take the bread we have and make yourself a sandwich"

No reply

When I came home, the first thing she said to me was - I kid you not - "Where is my sandwich?"

Anonymous

11:45 AM

Wow.

MechMK1

I said "I told you, I am not going to the grocery store. It's the other way. I was up for 14 hours, working, while you are just playing games in your room. if you really wanted a sandwich, you could have just gone and bought one. I'm not your maid, okay?"

Her response was "Oh my god, you're so awful to me! You come home and just put me down! You never do anything for me!"

i said "Listen, I'll forget this conversation happened. I will go take a bath, and then I will cook dinner for us. Now please, leave me alone"

Anonymous

That is insane. Genuinely insane.

MechMK1

I was so fucking close, so fucking close to slapping her

I didn't, but damn was I close to doing so

Anonymous

That whole scenario really makes me think that she is one of those girls who actually wants a second dad for the rest of her life and will go through as many guys as it takes to get one.

Anonymous

Which is scary.

MechMK1

11:48 AM

Oh, that is what she wanted

Her mother is just the same

She gets offended whenever is is compared to her mother

But it is true

Anonymous

Yeah I mean, I cannot say I am surprised by that.

MechMK1

Like, I joke about wanting a "mommy gf" regularly, but like...not like this

Anonymous

That kinda' behaviour is usually because of poor parenting, abusive household, lack of positive rolemodels, etc, etc.

MechMK1

All of the above

Anonymous

Ultimately it isn't ENTIRELY her fault. Of course, she's an adult at some point she has some blame here.

MechMK1

11:49 AM

Literally all of it

She's 21, it is entirely her fault

Anonymous

But... At the same time she never asked to be born into such a shit environment.

MechMK1

Because I didn't even see a SLIVER of introspection

not a sliver of trying to improve her behaviour

Anonymous

Well that's a significant problem.

MechMK1

And the lies, the constant lies

She kept lying to me about everything

The tiniest, most insignificant shit

Like it was a compulsion

Anonymous

But I am really not someone who likes to put someone's behaviour down to them and them only, it's usually a product of so much other shit they couldn't control.

Anonymous

11:51 AM

It's very much that if that's all they know then to learn anything else is very difficult. Possible, but difficult.

MechMK1

Yeah, and I don't object that her upbringing was more difficult than mine

But i didn't expect perfection from her, you know?

Anonymous

Yeah I met a few compulsive liars in my time.

MechMK1

I supported her in every way I could

But she didn't see that as support, just as me giving her stuff because it's her

Anonymous

They are usually people that had zero attention in life so they just lie and lie because they get more dopamine than normal people from attention.

MechMK1

Because genuine support would mean she had to do something too

Anonymous

11:52 AM

Oh yeah, you did nothing wrong. Don't get me wrong, I am absolutely not saying her behaviour is okay or you did zomething or anything.

MechMK1

She did that, yeah

Lied about how some guy tried to steal her handbag, etc...

Now look, she is like 1.50 and weighed 45kg. If someone wanted to steal her handbag, they would have the handbag

Whenever she was outside by herself, she would tell me outlandish stories about how she was attacked by people in various ways

Anonymous

Yeah, people like that do tend to make up scenarios because they have nothing else.

Anonymous

The whole situation is just insane and really unfortunate something you could never have known would happen.

Anonymous

And it is so easy to say "I should have left sooner" but let's be honest, that is such a stupid thought to even have. It's not that easy.

MechMK1

Yeah, she had nothing else

I know it wasn't that easy

Anonymous

11:56 AM

You cannot just leave. It doesn't work like that.

Anonymous

And if it did you didn't love them anyways right so

MechMK1

I wanted to help her have something, you know?

And education, a job, friends, etc...

Anonymous

oh yeah 100%

MechMK1

But she refused it all

Anonymous

thats what any fucking good partner does.

MechMK1

11:57 AM

She didn't want an education, she didn't want a job, she didn't want real life friends

Anonymous

All in all it sounds like to me she needs to get checked in somewhere and evaluated and treated.

MechMK1

I did everything I could, but I can't do it myself. She was big on talking about how she is going to do all these things

Anonymous

I think that's clear enough.

MechMK1

But as soon as something required her to do something, she didn't want it

Anonymous

This is more than behaviour issues, it's a condition or trauma or whatever.

Anonymous

11:58 AM

People don't just act like this when they're normal people or stable.

MechMK1

Possibly, but I don't believe any of the stories she told me

She told me when she was 4 years old, her parents left her alone for 2 weeks and she cooked for herself

I mean...genuinely...

Anonymous

Yeah, makes sense. But I don't accept that people just act like this "just because" you know. It is likely she did experience a lot of trauma whether she told you THE actual events is a different matter.

Anonymous

Either way, from an outsiders perspective what she did is totally wrong and she really should find something in herself to go and figure out why she would act like that.

ThoriumBR

/me wakes up, goes to DMZ... "guys there are 5 timezones ahead of me, let catch up really fast... gets to the top, start reading... scroll bar keeps going UP... what? cannot read fast enough... give up, press END..."

hi guys!

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