so the first saturday of the year, it felt rather easy getting my face into water. I stayed at the edge only, because I didn't want to bother a helper
second saturday of the year, it was my birthday, last week
there I thought "now I want to do this for myself, for my birthday"
went through edge and a stack of pads, then worked up the courage to do it with a single pad
and this is where it starts getting real, because two pads still float well on the water
but when I push on a single pad, it moves under my hands while my hips push the boat up. It's not solid.
and then I got somebody to help me
first I pushed myself off his hands
and then I tried with the paddle, but wasn't able to get it right. He needed to push me a bit, always
today I went through the early stages quickly, then tried with the paddle again, and a helper
another helper this time, he also brought the paddle in the right position for me a few times
and then at some point, I managed it without him helping
I havent' had this feeling since I was 9
my grandma taught me to ride a bicycle