Dennis

I'm sort of done with the most urgent things, so I hope I'll be able to dedicate some time to TIO now.

I've been taking care of some urgent stuff in the past month. TIO wasn't the only thing I had been neglecting, so finances, taxes and whatnot had been piling up.

Thanks to everyone who expressed their support. It really means a lot. :)

It normally takes one to two weeks for the droplets to break. This time, it was only a couple of days...

@HyperNeutrino Should be fixed.

@RosLuP I wasn't drinking any coffee when the anxiety was at its worst.

@LuisMendo That's true, but I probably don't need the extra responsibilities right now.

Doing it this publicly wasn't easy though. I hadn't done that before.

Thank you. I seem to be better, yes.

@JeffZeitlin While not the cause of my absence, the the Monica situation hasn't helped matters. Being a Code Golf mod was important to me. Leaving the way I did made me either sad or angry every time I visited the site...

Since they are wildcard certs, I sadly cannot auto-renew them. I would have to store a DigitalOcean API key to perform the DNS challenges automatically, granting full control over my DO account...

@AndrewSavinykh Thank you for the reminder. I just renewed the certs.

The backend stability issues can hopefully be resolved by setting up fresh servers. After fixing the outdated build scripts, I'll try that.

@Adám I'd like to try coming back first. If I can't, I'll transfer the domains to someone who wants to keep it going.

@LuisMendo Sorry for not responding earlier, I wasn't really checking my email either...

If somebody of you is interested, I could give your access to the servers and we'd keep them in shape together. It doesn't have to be all the time, but it would be nice to have somebody to fall back on if I become incapacitated again.

If you want to set up your own backend, I'll certainly try to help.

@Pavel I definitely want to keep maintaining, but I cannot guarantee I'll be able to.

If you never experienced anything liek this, it probably sounds a little pathetic. But anyway, that's what's been happening to me and why I was so unavailable lately.

I was eventually unable to even enter this chat room, worried everybody would be mad for disappearing. Today is the first time in weeks I managed to log in...

I'm not sure what exactly triggered it, but the anxiety eventually got worse again; it might be related to returning my diamond. Phone notifications freaked me out, afraid of what they might be about, unable to check. While working on TIO, I was constantly afraid of messing up the servers. Not wanting to get back to how things were in July, I turned of pretty much all notifications on my phone. I didn't notify you at this point, because I though it would only be for a few days.

After a few weeks and several doctor appointments, I eventually convinced myself that there was nothing physically wrong with me. I was still anxious, but no longer to the point where I felt I was going to die. By that time, I had lost a little over 10 kg (22 lbs) in roughly a month. I had been too afraid of food to ingest all the calories I needed...

I was much better already, less depressed and with less pain, but I started to get pretty severe anxiety in 2019. In June, I started to get tinnitus. This constantly reminded me that there was something wrong with me, making the anxiety worse. In July, I felt like I was literally dying all the time, which is why I was barely here anymore during that time.

I've been dealing with mental health issues for a little over four years now. It all started with fibromyalgia, mainly pain in my legs that made it difficult to walk, without a physical cause. This soon was accompanied by depression, which got pretty severe. I barely had any desire to live in 2017. Working on TIO actually was one of the very few healthy things that brought me joy during that period.

Hey all. I'm sorry for disappearing on you and for taking bad care of TIO lately. I'll try to explain what's been happening, although it's not easy for me to talk about this...

@Brad Always glad to hear that. :)

@Brad Either a normal reboot or a hard reset from the control panel, as the server can become to unresponsive to reboot on its own. Please notify me as soon as you think something's wrong.

:)

Sorry for the delay.

@snail_ Done.

@Jono2906 Done.

@totallyhuman It may be related to the unresponsiveness. It's possible that there's a race condition somewhere.

@Brad @FrenchMasterSword Should be fixed for now. Unfortunately, this is a recurring issue.

@Pavel Updated Coconut.

@Jono2906 Done.

@NieDzejkob Done.

@Jono2906 Done.

@Jono2906 Done.

I'll try to catch up on the requests in the next few days.

@betseg You can just pass those as compiler flags, so I don't think a separate language is needed.

@ngn Done.

@cairdcoinheringaahing Done.

@Jono2906 Done.

@JoKing This is getting more and more frequent... :/

@JoKing I wish I knew. The arena servers keep getting themselves into trouble.

@Jono2906 Done.

Please feel free to ping me when something isn't working.

@UnrelatedString Should be fixed.

@Jono2906 Done.

If there are many breaking changes, it would be better to add the newer version as a separate language. Old permalinks will break, as the output is not permanently stored on the server (just cached for a couple of weeks.