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@forest well i'm back at work. easier to collect images

:3

major mistake during the holiday was that i forgot the javascript for getting the image list so even after i finished the script to help select images, i had no real easy way to populate the image pool

ohayou

yo

osu~

Mornin'

Anyone here planning to watch SSSS.Gridman? :)

@Keale maybe when it comes out on Home Release

looking at some of the images there's bloody Gojira! yeh!

Oh @Memor-X. Hello :)

@Keale yo

I just wanted to, I guess warn about the yuri there?

I don't remember which subreddit, but there was disappointment in the lack of yuri on that series

although it seemed prevalent from the fanarts

(this is from an outside PoV)

that's because the yuri, or the ship sailed only on the last episodes

I just wanted to say that, if you go in expecting some yuri, you will be really disappointed

but if you let the yuri build up through your goggles, there is some yuri to be had

@Keale i was expecting zero yuri so the fact there is some is good

but yeah, you need the goggles. though I wonder if someone was able to successfully take that off

@Keale i have Mystic Eyes of Yuriness

there is some. Not sure if it's subtext since I have my goggles all the time

hahahaha

it's the same kind of eyes that Chitose and Chiziru have in Yuru Yuri except i don't wear Mystic Eye Killers like they do

Hmm, that got me into thinking. Is yuri on the recent anime more 'obvious'? I can't really tell if it's just my goggles or yuri is getting really more obvious?

For example, in New Game.

@Keale new game is subtext but there is a series with the same sort of setting as New Game which is yuri

For me, Rin likes Kou, in a probably romantic way. But I can't really tell if it's just me or it really is obvious

Ooohhhh

It's still subtext? So it's just my goggles.

but there was a number of yuri titles last year. Kase-san, Citrus, Bloom into You

@Keale well i havn't seen it but mangaupdates says subtext

Now Loading! on the other hand

> Takagi finally gets the job she's always wanted, working at a game publisher - but not only is the game she's put in charge of managing kind of falling apart, one of the directors, the legendary Sakurazuki Kaori, seems to have it in for her! What's Sakurazuki's deal? Will Takagi get her sucky game off the chopping board? And can the workplace of her not-quite-dreams lead her to a fairytale romance?

That's an interesting one

I really liked Kase-san

Liked it so much that I bought all the manga lol

Heya ^^

@Keale english?

@Morwenn yo

Nope. Japanese

I live in Japan btw

@Memor-X sounds like something I would read :p

@Keale ahhh, i'm still waiting on vol 5 to come out next month

and hopefully the sequel

Oh yeah. that's actually what I find difficult in that manga series. The volumes are not numbered, so I don't know if I have the latest volume whenever I go to a bookstore

@Morwenn game developed + yuri would be my ideal world

But it's a good one. I can't explain why, but I really liked it

I'll probably get Now Loading when I drop by a bookstore sometime :)

@Keale i read a couple of chapters when Yuri-Project translated it. then when i heard they were coming out in english i stopped. then there was that music video tease before the anime

@Keale oh hey now i can confirm we still have someone in japan here. might be able to help Daniel Rigg

Oh, how can I help?

Nope I'm not Japanese haha

though I can speak/listen the language

reading/writing with the aid of a computer

@Keale i linked to the permalink above. just read from there. @DanielRigg could give you more details of what they are looking for

i wasn't sure how many japanese/living in japan people we had left here

@Morwenn how's the protest's going?

Oh that was a permalink? Ok let me check

@Memor-X no idea, I stopped following weeks ago

I never really followed tbh

@Morwenn well just means your too far away to be affected then, which is good

the news here generally focus on the protests in Paris but i would assume it's not just Paris that's getting trashed

@Memor-X I'm in a small remote town: 250k inhabitants

there were things for a few weeks, but it somehow died around here

people move to bigger cities to protest

IIRC besides Paris, there are at least big protests in Toulouse, Bordeaux, Lilles and Montpellier

@Morwenn yeh i don't think any of those have been mentioned in the news here

because people outside France only know about Paris x)

true

i only know of other places though games like Bladestorm

more often than not when given the name of a department or a somewhat big city I'm unable to place it on a map

mornings v1.1

@僕の彼女 pancreas?

yup

also, wanted to ask you yesterday

you watching the new SAO?

@僕の彼女 not yet, not on DVD

still have yet to watch the movie or GGO

sorta hard to continue after Yuuki

game universe much better

heh

GGO is not really canon

so you can probably skip it

but this new is honestly really good

@僕の彼女 yeh but the yuri subtext and also what's in the anime generally shows up in the games

mmm

ie. Hollow Fragment had Sinon in it and ofcause Yuuki shows up at the end and it makes no sense unless you know who she is to understand why she appeared all of a sudden in SAO

(basic reason, she was just messing around and found SAO, didn't know it was being deleted or that you could die if you played)

ah, makes sense now

reddit.com/r/anime_irl/comments/adfzto/anime_irl

lol

lmao

It's not a DFC, it's a trap! Beware!

I'm a trap too yet I have bewbs :o

:o

That's what you get for undergoing hrt while not exactly identifying as a girl ^^'

Once someone told me they were doing HRT but I had a brain fart and confused it with HAART (which is for AIDS) and told them I was so sorry and shit like that.

They got so offended before I realized I had made a mistake.

And that they weren't dying of AIDS but were just doing hormone treatment.

haha, I see how they could have been offended x3

what is HRT?

but I've got like a small A cup, I don't think anyone at work has noticed so far

despite me wearing tank tops every day

Hormone Replacement Therapy

oh

That's what transgender people undergo to have nifty changes in their body

@Proxy It's for gender dysphoria.

In my case I take testosterone killers and pseudo-estrogens

Helps induce bodily changes to allow someone's biological gender to match their gender identity.

yeah i know, did not know what was the acronym for that

I don't really identify as a girl, but I clearly had body dysphoria to some point, and hormones were fucking welcome x.x

if i may ask then why are you taking them then?

they helped you somehow?

You can have gender dysphoria without feeling comfortable identifying with the opposite gender. It's just about "not feeling right in your own body", not simply wanting to switch genders.

yeah, basically

I couldn't bear watching my hair fall, my body hair grow, and my whole body slowly aging and becoming more masculine by the year

Go figure

but in the end, it makes you feel better?

I feel really better

No one would mess with their hormones if it didn't help them!

It's the difference between being depressed almost every day and being depressed once in a while

o/

oh i see. well the part with body hair grow sounds nice :).

The small boobs are a bonus :p

I was really hating my body when it randomly started to grow hair on the chest, shoulders, back of the neck, lower back, belly, etc.

how come you started the therapy? some doctor gave you the recommendation or?

since you said you do not identify as a girl and it helped you with depression?

I went to see a therapist specialized in gender stuff, talked for an hour, he gave me a recommendation letter; I showed that letter to an endocrinologist, talked to him about my situation and he prescribed hormones

I don't believe in boys or girls x)

Or more like I don't give that much of a fuck about gender

Some people don't like conforming to societal expectations of gender.

I only care about feeling better with myself and not being constantly depressed :p

I've started feeling off with myself circa 2010 yet I only started hormones in 2016

i understand that, was just wondering how it came to help you with depression

It turns out that you're less depressed when you don't hate your body x)

It helps some people with gender dysphoria, even if a little.

Hatred of one's own body can be a horrible thing.

plus it really made me question myself about many things, including myself, gender, gender expression, expectations, people in general, etc.

I didn't start hormones sooner because I didn't feel legit (because of that "I don't identify as a girl" thing)

There's so much identity politics and stuff around it... I think it would be nicer if people treated it like what it is: a medical condition that can be treated and needs support.

Fundamentally, if someone doesn't feel comfortable with your body, stop arguing about it and just let people use the treatment methods that help them feel better!

plus the "official" people taking care of trans people in France are basically gender police, it's horrible

i see. Sorry i did not mean anything bad with it. Was just curious because you mentioned you do not feel like a girl but you started to take the therapy

like, if you don't want a vagina and to have sex with guys, you're in for some troubles and looooooonnng years of waiting for anything

i know it is quite hard to get those therapies as well, especially if you are not sure

@Proxy It's often more about not wanting to feel masculine than explicitly wanting to feel feminine.

now I'm sure as fuck x)

@forest this, exactly ^^

it's about not wanting to age like a guy somehow

i know that, i feel the same way but still

that seems to be a pretty big step

to me it turned to depression

@Proxy It takes a while for changes to be permanent.

If you do it and very shortly after you want to stop, you can.

It's not like reassignment therapy where it's destructive and, if you change your mind later, you're simply screwed. It's a much more gradual process.

I never got it clinically diagnosed as depression, but when you wake up every not wanting to go to work, feel like shit all day and just want to go home, and once you're home you just cry for an hour and go to sleep early because you don't have a will to do anything, then I guess it's depression x)

tbh if I stopped hormones, everything I hate would probably come back

yeah i got those a lot

under a few months even

i did not read a lot about it to be honest. Again sorry if i come rude that is not my intention.

I even became well enough with myself to actually want relationships, cuddles & stuff, which was never the case before because I didn't like myself enough to even consider anything of like this ><

The changes may seem small but it was a life-changer :p

yeah it is great that it helped you

Ideally we'd be able to just change the brain to end gender dysphoria and make everyone comfortable in their own bodies again, but we're not capable of that yet. Right now the best we have is things like HRT, which can be a lifesaver for some.

somehow I like the idea of keeping my hair more than the idea of changing my brain to accept hair loss as an ok thing x)

changing the brain is also changing someone's identity to some point

I think it's more like removing a dysphoria.

Like I have a deathly fear of needles. I'll actually pass out if I get a shot (a nasty problem called vasovagal syncope, it really sucks).

But I'd far prefer to just be comfortable with needles than to get rid of needles.

I guess it depends on what you're meddling with

but then it delves right into morals and ethics :p

True, and in the end it should always be up to the person suffering.

if we could make people be comfortable with everything, we'd probably jump straight into some kind of cyberpunk dysphoria at some point

i agree with that it is a personal decision. Sadly there is too much stigma about it

Well there's a difference between turning people passive so they're ok with everything, and getting rid of an intense dysphoria that causes severe depression.

I know that plenty of trans people wish they were cis and didn't have a problem with their body to start with

@Proxy Yeah the stigma is dumb. I don't see why we can't treat it like any other mental problem that leads to depression. I mean, you wouldn't tell someone suffering from cancer to just "get over it because everyone dies eventually".

on the other hand, I leanrt so many things and met so many people while trying to get rid of my issues that I'm glad to be where I am today

Nor would you tell someone with a fear of heights that their fear doesn't matter.

had I remained a cis guy I probably would be quite boring today with a restricted view of the world in comparison ><

@forest still that's what we often tell to people with social anxiety

"lol, get over it, just go meet people"

I think that's horrible.

Social anxiety can be downright crippling.

yup

i guess problem stems from the fact that you can not see it clearly

I know, I suffer from it. Meeting people, even for my job, is stressful.

and people usually just have a view from their own perspective

I have less social anxiety too now that I feel better with myself

but some things still feel overhelming :x