what I think is that there's no need to put that much emphasis on what 'mathematics' is, but rather on the things that people are actually studying, e.g. number theory or other stuff - then i feel that you might not be so conflicted over this.
if you forget about the word 'mathematics' - and perhaps just observe that some people care about number theory, some people care about topology etc. then i think the problem that these things may not be relevant to reality is not that big of a deal (at least imo) - after all a lot of people (in other fields - even!) study things that don't quite …
if you forget about the word 'mathematics' - and perhaps just observe that some people care about number theory, some people care about topology etc. then i think the problem that these things may not be relevant to reality is not that big of a deal (at least imo) - after all a lot of people (in other fields - even!) study things that don't quite …