@HannahVernon Thankfully, it was a metaphorical, speaking-to-the-air-around-me turn of phrase and not an expression of an actual desire for the act to be carried out!
The act or process of limiting another party's participation in a collective identity or an activity, usually due to undue pettiness, resentment, or overprotectiveness.
in modern usage, it means feeling entitled to something, while not being qualified or willing to put any effort in to obtain it, and being denied the opportunity by people who were qualified or put effort in etc. I think that's right