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00:33
Apparently "sine" is from Latin "sinus" which means a bend, but that's not quite the relevant meaning here. It also means (so saith the OED) "the hanging fold of the upper part of a toga", which is the nearest Latin equivalent for the Arabic word "jaib", which Arab mathematicians used for the sine. (Why? I don't know. Probably there's some diagram in some mathematical textbook that someone thought looked like a fold in a garment.)
That makes my life more difficult though
Just make cosecant=1/cosine
As for why it's sine and secant that were chosen as the "fundamental" terms, rather than an actually-corresponding pair, I have no idea.
Maybe a question for Math History, lol
Perhaps some author thought the definition of sine was somehow simpler than the definition of cosine, and the definition of secant was somehow simpler than the definition of cosecant.
I agree that it's weird and ugly.
I don't know much about trigonometry at this stage, but I usually think of the "x" axis before I think of the "y" axis second. Though it's y/x for like finding slope so... I have zero clue
00:59
Hm, that's odd
Oh, that's because it's cos^2(x)-sin^2(x)
Long story short, I thought cos(2x) was cos^2(x)+sin^2(x), and I had to solve for cos(2x), and I was like, hold up, cos(2x) is not equal to 1
 
3 hours later…
03:42
@Sciborg virtual hugs
there I paid you
Dr. Mick, PhD is now available
what did you do your PhD on?
() mick is legally required to state they are not a doctor*
My PhD thesis was "How To Properly Make Hot Chocolate"
how long was it?
ooh, what were the section titles?
Section One focused primarily on the composition of the chocolate, and the proper ratio and texture of the powder. Section Two was entirely on the marshmallows, whipped cream and other accessories
Section Three focused on the proper times of day to consume hot chocolate
03:45
what is the proper time of day?
And the appendix cites two opposing papers, "You Horrible Monster How Could You Consume That Much Sugar" by Prince North and "The Proper Way to Consume Hot Chocolate" by Bobblius PhD
But obviously my thesis was superior
nah, that latter paper seems better to me
That is a purely academic opinion, which is to say it is incorrect
so academia is incorrect?
Academia about not putting marshmallows in hot chocolate is, yes
03:48
anyways, onwards to therapy.
I never really articulated how dangerous it would be for me to drive with tics
I can't go with my normal method of dropping everything and waiting for the storm to pass
Is it something you considered before or is it a recent realization?
I know that I can have tic storms while sitting doing something stressful - they've occurred during tests
I didn't consider it fully
I knew that I wasn't going to learn how to drive, but I justified that as biking was easier
also, where am I going to drive?
*yet
I always assumed I would learn to drive eventually
as one of those Things That Adults Do
Well, learning to drive isn't necessarily required for adult life, depending on if you live somewhere that has bus service, public transportation, and/or your workplace is close by or virtual. If you're worried that you would medically be unable to drive, there are options you can look at.
I have long periods of time, especially on good days, without tics
But I don't really want to be rolling the dice on having a good day every time I get into a car
Yeah. It would be unsafe to gamble
Unless you can be super completely sure that tics won't ever occur while you drive, not driving is a thing you might have to deal with for a while :(
03:52
I am very uncomfortable with a city or any sort of downtown. Not sure how to describe how, but the idea of having buildings on either side of the street and apartments and stores and schools and everything piled on top of each other.... yeah, downtown isn't comfortable for me
That's fair. I don't like going downtown either, too many cars and too many people
It will be tricky to live in suburbs or an apartment that's within biking distance of a workplace, but it's completely doable.
Are you comfortable with the idea of taking a bus, a subway, etc?
I biked to school before this, and it takes about 20 minutes to go one way (15 if the lights work out and I rush a bit)
Subways and buses are comfortable for me, but I've only ever had to rely on them during vacations
My parents drive everywhere
If you would be comfortable and the option is available, it's perfectly doable to plan on taking a bus or subway to work. Lots of people who don't have cars do that :)
Some of my friends who cannot afford a car just bus to work.
I'm still. well. My parents drive. They talk about learning to drive. I just assumed that I would drive.
So it's more the emotional side of things that bothers you, rather than the logistics
03:58
both sides at the moment
this is just so big
Yeah. I know it's tough to think about. I figured it would be comforting to know you have logistical options and it's totally doable, on the logical side of things, but the emotional processing side is a lot more to consider.
It's kinda just something you figured you would do
My 16th passed a while back and I didn't try to learn because I didn't need to.
If the meds stopped my tics, this conversation wouldn't be happening
But even with meds I can have attacks
Yeah. You don't want to put yourself in a scary situation where tics happen unexpectedly.
04:04
What would you do in if you had tics?
In this situation, or in general?
Driving-wise
It would depend on severity, but if there could potentially be a situation where my tics might cause me to lose control of the vehicle and hurt myself or other people, I would be too anxious to drive.
There are certain situations I've never had tics - biking, for instance - but the only way to know if I can have severe tics while driving would be to have severe tics while driving
Which is a situation you probably don't want to occur.
04:10
yeah
the worst that can happen for a bike tic is falling over in the middle of the road
the worst that can happen for a car tic is crashing and killing a bunch of people
At the moment, all of my stims are voluntary movements, so I've never had to think about it from the perspective of involuntary movements - if i have to stim while driving, i can choose to do a couple vocal stims or other quick things that won't disrupt my driving. But with tics, you don't get to choose what happens.
I can sometimes redirect the tic, so my head would shake instead of my hands. I don't know how I could possibly tic safely, though, and I can't always redirect
Yeah
I actually have involuntary movements that attempt to stop tics, for another layer
Some positions of my arms, for instance, seem to blunt tics there. So I started trying to use them for all arm tics, and eventually they started happening of their own accord
Tics on top of tics, oh dear
04:17
They're not tics exactly, they're things my body does when it detects a tic is coming
but in practice I have trouble stopping them, so they end up being tic-like
Ahh, so more like anticipatory tics
Have you discussed driving with your neurologist?
no, last message to neurologist was informing that I upped my dose
It might be good to plan on talking to them about it, at next visit
At diagnosis they said that tics should go away in a year
apparently temporary tics happen to teens/kids (more male than female)
Which... did not happen, obviously, i'm guessing :/
04:22
did not happen
Temporary tics are not remotely what you have
They didn't say anything about going away last visit, just that they were clearly impacting my life and it was time to use meds
It's good that they at least understand the gravity of the situation, instead of dismissing it
Are you feeling okay?
I hope talking isn't stressing you out
I'm having less intrusive thoughts about this at least after talking
I'm not good at telling my own emotions, so I have to rely on physical symptoms and thoughts
That's good, then - i'm glad this helped a bit
Emotional processing isn't a strong suit of mine either :p
04:29
do you have time to solve a Statue Park as a distraction?
Sure! I've still got the Tetrikabe solver open as well, so either one
Tetrikabe first
To the secret lairrr
what does the timer there say?
7:29:00
It's been open for like... eight-ish hours now
04:30
apparently I made a hard one
 
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16:19
Please star this message so I can get a hat :P
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Also, my medications costs about $7 per pill. SEVEN DOLLARS PER ONE SMALL AF PILL
Granted it is kind of fancy though
In that case, star my message
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Even better: pinned :P
how small is small?
mine are the size of a grain of rice
36 mg small
About double the size of a grain of rice
hah, mine are smaller!
I like it small, easier to swallow
Did you see Sciborg's thesis above?
16:25
Yup
The pill is coated with a layer of ritalin so that it acts "instantly" (it really takes about an hour to fully kick in). The cool part of my medication though is that it uses some diffusion or osmosis for the rest: as the outer part gets dissolved, the inner part is filled with a different type of stimulant which gets pushed out via diffusion through a small, microscopic hole which is laser drilled
That's how it lasts for about 12-ish hours, or basically the whole day
My meds aren't even approved for tics, and they're not entirely sure how they work
Also, I genuinely cannot remember if I took my meds. The day says so, but I don't remember if I did
Mine (or the compound found in my medication) is also used to treat narcolepsy, because it's a stimulant
Crap. I genuinely CANNOT remember if I took one this morning
If I take double the dose that's worse though so
would counting help?
as in, you count the pills left
and you hopefully know the days until next refill or since last refill
The thing is, I don't remember when the last time I checked was
Last time I checked, there were 14 leftr
I'll know in about an hour. Usually, I get really hungry without my medication
The only side effect is loss of appetite for my meds, which is why I get really hungry if I don't take it
Mine has a whole list of possible side effects but I thankfully have none
16:31
Oh and also inability to sleep during the duration of the medication, because it is again, a stimulant
@Sciborg, when you're available, please star our messages so we can get hats
I really wish they'd rename ADHD because it's so much more than attention
Quote that doctor up there, it's a failure of regulatory inhibition, that is, to regulate, stop, and filter all the good from the junk
I don't know much here. Riordan is the only book series I've read with any ADHD that I remember
ADD is basically your brain without a filter
There's a disconnect between your back of your brain (where I believe it process information) and the front part of your brain (the pre-frontal cortex, where you make decisions and stuff).
There are a handful of things which come as a consequence of that, but the most notable is impulsivity. Because there's not really a filter, most people with ADD just kind of do it because they want to. And it's not that they're choosing to, but rather there's no filter that allows them to choose. It becomes very, very hard to do things that you just don't "feel" like doing
What do the meds do?
16:44
The meds primarily serve as a way of bridging the gap. I think (don't quote me on this) the stimulants allow the synapses to essentially communicate better
It's really nice, because having ADD means you can't block distractions either
And when you become aware of all 30 things going around you at once, from that guy who's shaking his feet across the classroom, to the teacher talking, to the butterfly outside, to the clock that's ticking, to that girl who sneeze and your friend who's giving you weird looks as the teacher speaks... yeah you can see how we get distracted
This is the primary reason why I take medication. The ability to focus is huge, yes, but more so that I don't literally go crazy. It's so mentally exhausting when your brain tries to process EVERYTHING at once
I can't really imagine, but I can provide virtual hugs
Good enough for me
Also, pretty sure I took my medication. I'm not getting my wave of hunger pangs or the headache that accompanies me whenever I try to start on something
For my tics... I essentially got that diagnosis because they couldn't figure out what's wrong with me.
"You clearly have a problem but we can't figure out why"
When did you first start having these involuntary movements?
I don't remember the exact start time, but I estimate June 2019
maybe July or August
16:49
Ah. I got diagnosed in third grade after I kept getting out of my chair and blurting the answer out :P
They ruled out drugs, some forms of epilepsy, and several conditions I can't remember the name of
Are you sure it's not drugs? I've seen stuff in your top secret grid-deduction room :P
well the blood test I took... fall 2019?... said I was clear
@feelinferrety No, the java was not me
did you mean to post that in the Lair?
this is the Grove, North's personal room
16:52
Hehe, you found the Grove
Do I have another tutor to add to my army of personal tutors?
:P
Anyhow
Oh well
You are right
@bobble You said they usually come when you're under stress or anxiety?
that's a trigger
I had a huge spike on the first week of school (last year) for instance
This year the first week didn't really feel like school
16:59
And it's possible that it's not tics and something else
well tics are the best diagnosis they could come up with
and the meds are working, so I'm not prone to quibbling with my doctors
Mm
Bobble are you free to help me fix my clues in the private room testsolving room deus made? I'm planning to release it today
Tics are also easier to explain to people, especially because I can go "like Tourette's, but no vocal tics"

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