11:11 PM
@anongoodnurse Good gracious, thanks for the compliment! And you've also made me laugh as well - a book written by me, what a thought - I imagine it would at least be a decent emergency substitute for toilet paper! :D
@anongoodnurse As for writing, the closest I've come to it were I think the short "stories" I used to write as I was younger and, at most, used to share them with closest friends. But actually, they weren't as much stories as they were rants, mocking certain topics with my low-grade humor and highly offensive language - nothing to be proud of nor share with a wider audience :D but it was fun, and helped me to vent off the frustration about these topics I mocked.
@anongoodnurse For instance, I am incredibly irritated by the sounds of loud vehicle engines and exhausts, especially by their obnoxious revving which I find highly offensive and arrogant. It resonates with my anxiety and immediately enables my fight-or-flight response. My "stories", for example, mocked drivers of such vehicles and pictured settings meant to shame them; I also reflected being anxious of the generally poor driving culture and pedestrian risk where I live (in Poland, Yurop).
@anongoodnurse But while I genuinely enjoy any forms of artistic and creative expression, I also tend to get rapidly drained by any activities that require an input of conscious, creative effort - such as writing. And even my low-quality rant stories were draining in that sense as well.
@anongoodnurse I ocasionally do things like that; or draw, etc. to prevent myself from completely descending into a hollow existence; but I don't think I'm smart enough, and whatever else qualities would be needed, to write "seriously" such as writing a book.
@anongoodnurse But it's okay :3 for me it's more important to be happy than to be smart. I'm learning, with a limited success but still, to derive happiness from simple things as well, even such braindead utility activities in which, I guess, a machine could replace me and actually do a better job!
@anongoodnurse And regarding this little peculiar detail about licking the yogurt - I missed it at first, but something felt a little bit off because of that subtle detail - then I realized how frightening it actually is that it is a thing, because it reminded me of how cautious one must be while dealing with a WILD animal, and not to rely on predictions because that's a false sense of security in this case.
