@user Yes..

@user I am not a mod and cannot do anything about the deleted question. Low score closed questions are automatically deleted. However, I stand by my decision to put on hold. Please understand the reason why your question was put on hold. Provide some background, do some research on your own, make the rationale of the question clear etc. Ask a new question. It isn't really that difficult.

@user You have my sympathies for the bad phase in life you are going through but it has got nothing to do with your question. I don't see how a frivolous thing like a deleted/closed stackexchange question would affect your life so much. And even if it does in some way that I fail to understand, it is not acceptable to lower the standards for a user just because they are going through a bad phase in their life.

There is a reason why people don't share their identities in sites like these. Here, we are just users who participate in a site about biology.

So all I can tell you is: write a new question. It is not a big deal. Not as if you have been asked to re-write your thesis! Your original question also lacks content and you would anyway have to work on it. So work on a new fresh post!