I am a rising 2nd year student in PhD theoretical physics. I love physics. But that's also the problem: I love physics too much. This is hampering my research... I find peace in deriving either each microstep or get lost in relating ideas and finding alternate/beautiful solutions to already solved problems. I like reading papers, explaining it to others but that's it. This is like addiction to me. Don't think I am bragging but sometimes I am skipping meals and sleep for this. At the same time, somewhere deep inside I want to "be a physicist" which nowadays means publish a lot. Well, everyti…