:D

maybe your brain needs a holiday

mine does

@Zanna my complete body needs a holiday, a long one, a very very long one as in unlimited duration, as well as a holiday from all those #firstworldproblems like manspreading femspreading, SJW and what the heck not

O.O

all could be easily solved with common sense but most of the afore mentioned are drama queens in their own way, they only cause disruption and confusion

sorry bout my rant there

haha I think we need some disruption

well yes but this kind of disruption is harmful for everyone

I'm fully for equality, but what they doing there is not equality

but what do you mean? What happened?

stress over stress in all regards of my life

my dad is in ICU still, my caretakers are inaudible, I'm at an all time high of stress level

:(

government cutting more and more funds for caretaking and it seems right now as if i have to fend for myself as some point and not know how to do it with my agoraphobia

and then reading about all those #firstworldproblems i mentioned above just makes me angry, they are not after equality much they are only after spreading their own agenda and casuing drama

but what are you reading?

I didn't know what you meant

ah not reading much i mostly watch youtube videos and get this 'crap' all the time in suggestions again and again

I know manspreading is dudes sitting legs akimbo on public transport so the person sitting next to them has to shrink herself (or himself)

which is kind of annoying

but mainly just a tiny example of how men and women are socialised differently w/r/t/ the amount of space we are allowed to take up

well and females put their purses on a second spot beside them so they take atlmost the same space, so if people simply would speak to each other this could be normaly handled by common sense, I manspread too but being able to adapt if space is scarce i not do it but it is uncomfortable for me as certain things getting in the way if you get my drift

all this pouring acid over persons and what the heck not is not a way to solve this and to be honest in my eyes it is an artificial made conflict

if people are pouring acid over each other, that's not any kind of justice

men have been like this for milennias and untill 2014 all where getting along just fine

@Videonauth haha I don't agree with that part...

but I do agree that saying something is the way to deal with a space-on-public-transport issue

I'm fully for giving women the same right and the same wages and what not, but that is simply artificially made

@Zanna this is what it's really about

heck im even sitting now in meditative spread here on my deskchair

I'm even someone who would easily take the housemans role if my partner would be the one bringing in the cash

if people focus on such incidents in themselves, that's pretty silly

theres no dialog but to be honest if i would get poured over with acid or even water i would not care if its men or woman i would slap the hell out of them

:D

what I find annoying as a clean freak is people crossing their legs at the ankle when the sole of their shoe is going to rub against me haha

hehehe

@Videonauth well pouring acid on someone is extreme violence

yep and should be met with an appropiate reaction

and im gender neutral there

well my reaction would be if at all possible to pour on a lot of bicarbonate of soda

here in germany it is even a crime to make people feel bad in any way by your actions

so if you pour water out your window and hit somone with it they can call th e police

what do you mean? the law can't be worded like that haha

well it is called Körperverletzung

I'll shift these messages to the island

kk

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the english word does not really met up properly as 'Körperverletzung' is translated with Mayhem

korper is body?

hahaha mayhem

yes doing bodily harm to somone this includes even making them feel bad

causing them physical discomfort

so puring water over somebody or even worse is a 'körperverletzung'

thats the term i was searching for

I would be annoyed if someone poured water on me for sure

but if it was a soft drink like coke or something, or alcohol, I'd be really pissed off

yes in germany you could get them convicted for this

like, say you were on the way to work and you were drenched in some sticky stinky liquid you'd have to go home and change and stuff

yep

I am not a great fan of solving problems with law and order though

well some laws make sense and should be held highly some other laws are simply outdated and insanely useless

example, last yar i got accused of sexual harassment of my caretaker, heck all i was doing was looking at her (above the chest as i was talking to her.

funny eh?

I not even flirted with her nothing, a simply plain smalltalk was all i did

but nobody believed me as im a number with problems atached to it

:(

i am case x with symptoms y

symptoms y = rezivediernde depression, PTSD, insomnia, chronic muskle pain, agorabhopia, lonliness and well heck worst of it im single

so automatically all must be true what people say about me

which not even slightest have an insigth of what person i am

:(

well i better stop here or i will rant on for hours

well I have to pack and organise stuff

but the room is here

In my opinion we could all live on this planet in peace if we would simply drop our 'ellbow'' culture and aim for the important bits like people still starving on this planet, people being homeless

if ranting is any help

not really even this bit now made me cry somehow

i guess i better put the paperwork down (even if its important) and play a game or do something to distract my thoughs away from all that

they tell me crying releases endorphins and reduces stress hormones :/

thats the reason as well why i focus mostly on technical things, like math, math is pure logic and always the same

same with programming

hah yeah, math is reliable

yeah eve n if im not very good at math (or better to say parts of it)

I'm no good at it but I like it a lot

me too

@Zanna well i just phoned a new caretaking provider as almost everything is in the stars now maybe bringing in a different provider for a bit of fresh wind

all the best

it couldn't be much worse it seems

well my current caretaking provider is not sure if they can support me further on

so well all this bureaucracy making me crazy really

yeah that sucks

sounds like you need some moral support

or just someone to fill in forms and make them go away

yeah like self shooting mechanisms around my house and so on :) i really hate this kind of stuff

i had 4,75 hours of caretaking time granted in 2009 and this diminished through their whole f*ing system to 1 caretaking hour per week and 2.5 assitance hours but no provider for assistance hours in my town so im screwed

and the last i need is insecurity about my wellbeing

stresses me out, i have no words to describe the magnitude

it's terrible that you are left in this situation, it just shouldn't happen :(

well it happens

and as someone who gets panikattacks alone from taking out the trash this is really hard to understand, ok they all want to hospitalize me but this is for me a no go

1. i have a cat , and this little furball helped me more than any therapy

2. i never would give away my little life saver for nothing

3. i have such bad things had happen in mental hospital already that i have a big aversion against them

yeah can imagine

well just most people outside my life like the carettakers see this different

hospitalization would hve made sense directly after i faced this trauma, but now after 20 yearsthis is so deep inside me that i do not think a therapy could help