@EmC I know. It's so fucked up. I have been so sick that I couldn't even stop writing even if I want to. I have been trying my best to stay strong and move on and not write on from April 2017 but I just have no control over my brain. I have been even to therapist. I just don't know what to do. Like I am reasonable person and I can see all the crazy things I do. But I feel like screams and intense pain in my head and I cannot stop it. I just want help and get normal. I don't like doing all these things. — WantsToBePerfect 26 secs ago