hm... let me try to understand as a child you had a special imagination of Allah

yes

For example how non-Believers may describe him as the old wise man

and if i get you right once you are about to commit a sin this image comes into your mind and you leave it

well, my image is not human

yes

well that was just an example ;)

well honestly i think that could be useful, and yes it has a kind of shirk in it

but that isn't the only way i disbelieve

sometimes when i'm thinking of a hadith

or a verse in the Quran about Allah

I imagine this picture

i understand

but honestly i see a good thing in it but also the point that you made in your mind a picture of Allah

which would be shirk.

yes

drawing Allah by intention

as i remember that i myself draw a picture of HIM as a child and my father was upset

But honestly i have no idea how to give you advise

yes. that was when i was a child and now i've grown up and repented and the pictures dont' go. the shirk isn't gone

One point on your side is that you know your problem

So seeking advice on how to throw away this picture and reaction is a good step

but how do i become muslim and stop blaspheming

i mean Allah knows your effort

but my efforts aren't always upto the mark. I'm careless sometimes and that's when i slip

Plz notice that I'm convinced that i don't want to answer questions about waswas. I only try to point at what is right and what is wrong -from my understanding of islam- in a situation trying to take away some sources of waswas

Ok.

because i'm not good in giving advice and i'm not good in psychology

haha. That's ok.

but if you meet an imam or a scholar try to ask about my case and about the remedies

or anyone who knows about waswasa

But i would like to tell you that we need to try to know more about Allah

indeed

So maybe you can start at this point

trying to get to know your creator

ok.

and what will follow is following his orders

but we are human so we may fail and restart etc.

ok. Any advice on a site or a person who can help me?

honestly no. the point is i may often use as an evidence islamqa

but this site is ambivalent

as the scholar is a salafi and has a clear salfi view

i think we often know inside ourselves what is good and what is bad

but we often just ignore it

hmm

your advice was helpful

maybe you should try as a book the books of imam al-Ghazaly

I'll try that.

I have to go now

even if his hadith evidences are very weak!

Have a nice day salam!

Your advice was helpful. Walaykum Salah

Salam

are you there?