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I wish there is someone who can help me sort out things in my room.
my room is full of litters.
but I need space to package.
these days I am overwhelmed with these litters interspersed with things which may be useful things.
even preparing for leaving here is such a big trouble.
I have never sorted out things after moving back.
Because I felt great lack of time and have no much interest in sorting out things is this irrelevant world.
@Malavika I feel it's very difficult to do that now.
because I lack energy to do thing without food first. As long as I get up, I feel hungry.
but I don't know what to eat or feel going to eat too boring to do.
often I feel staying in dreamland is better than the real world here, where is devoid of people no matter when.
I think I have stayed here for so long that it has become my ruin.
even preparing for leaving here is so difficult for me.
this was not originally a congenial family.
only Father is the person who would maintain the household.
without him, the family is scattered.
because I feel lack of momentum to preparing for things in this nobody world.
@Malavika she is Bombarder who is egocentriac.
she is still at this home but she isn't a helpful person.
if you are together with her, you would feel nothing is fun.
because she is unwilling to do anything taking her money.
if you go out with her, she wouldn't buy anything to eat and only wants to go places which don't take money, unless you want to pay for her.
she is also very fussy so getting together with her is full of trouble.
also, I feel she doesn't have real interest, so she may not go to have fun with you even it's free. She mainly goes to those boring places, like banks.
she bombards for various fussy reasons from time to time, and it's very difficult to stay at her home.
she bombards for very irrational things.
I think the best is to leave this house for her to bombard.
she is very stingy, not willing to share her refrigerator with me.
if I put two beverages in her refrigerator, she would bombard.
and she puts a lot of litters in her living rooms, but if I just put one litter there, she bombards.
actually besides me, my sisters all move out, so this home has no animation besides her bombardment.
plus every facility in this house is broken, this house really feels like ghosts' residence.