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localhost
localhost
11:46 AM
hey @motosubatsu how is it going
 
motosubatsu
motosubatsu
12:02 PM
@localhost yeah not too bad for a Monday, how did your test go?
 
localhost
localhost
great, thanks for asking. sitting on uncomfy chair for 11 hrs was a pain though
 
motosubatsu
motosubatsu
@localhost when do you get your results? or have they given you them already?
 
localhost
localhost
nope, not yet. I will get them end of this week
tomorrow got jobcentre appointment
 
motosubatsu
motosubatsu
@localhost for JSA?
 
localhost
localhost
12:18 PM
nope, we r on benefits but for checking progress with job search
they want me to do 35 hrs a week of job search
 
motosubatsu
motosubatsu
@localhost it's a tricky one that.. since the underlying principle (i.e. that while unemployed searching for a job is your job) is sound, but the actual logistics of translating that into "35 hours a week" don't always translate
 
localhost
localhost
its madness, ur sitting at home, wife see u doing nothing, kid r running around, u cannot do 35 hrs of job search
 
motosubatsu
motosubatsu
@localhost I mean you can, it's just not terribly effective. Beyond putting 2-3 hours a day in you're getting into hugely diminishing returns
 
localhost
localhost
12:36 PM
yea that what I mean too and with 3 months of applying job and getting constant rejection is not positive as well
u ask urself I spend 8 yrs in this field. "Am I not even worth for 18k?" or junior role
 
localhost
localhost
12:57 PM
there is a website where u can write ur futureself letter, and it got delivered to me 3 days, when I resigned n went for bootcamp
@motosubatsu u were so right
In the letter I hoped things will be better as they sold hope but it didn't moved the needle but made worse
my fustration was more towards WFH as I couldn't have the environment to grow/thrive.
I got value out of it but not much, I realised I need a coach
which I will have once I get back on my feet
 
motosubatsu
motosubatsu
@localhost believe me, I take no pleasure in being right in this instance :(
 
localhost
localhost
What made me fustrated of 2 jobs I left was when I got stuck and I felt "I was imposter and I didn't have it in me" when was under pressure, and I didn't (I know myself), so in panic I quit and the self-confidence killed me coz everytime I would quit I would tell myself I will get a new one within weeks or max a month.
 

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