This is the best answer. Obviously there are romantic feelings between OP and "best friend". In which case the relationship should be abandoned as OP already has a romantic partner — goamn 2 mins ago

@clickbait IPS doesn't do logical paradox. But it sounds like you have an underlying problem that is in scope for the IPS SE, and that's what Meg attempted to change your question to being... On an unrelated note, I'm not sure calling Meg a guy was necessarily the best intrapersonal choice either. I don't know Meg. They apparently like to keep an air of mystery about them. Maybe they are a guy. But it doesn't seem like the most likely possibility. — Ed Grimm 1 min ago