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2:35 AM
I did debate in High School
Policy Debate for a year and then 3 years of Lincoln Douglas Debate
it's fun, teaches you how to construct an argument and speak to the common man, haha
In LD, the "judges" who determined who won a debate round were simply the parents -- average joe's -- of debate students. So part of the strategy was learning how to speak to a person and get them on your side rather than merely being able to spit out raw facts like a robot
 
"know your audience" and all
 
yeah
btw, either chrome is acting up or they removed the icons of fellow people in the chat room?
 
I'm on firefox, so I couldn't tell you
or, well, I guess that means chrome is acting up
 
I like our diversity, people from all over the world
 
yeah
 
2:40 AM
except starting at row 7 there are 5 Germans in a row
 
I'm pretty surprised I'm still up there, thoug
haha, nice catch
 
how's school going
 
pretty meh
 
charming smart guy like you
must be girls swarming you every day
 
the sarcasm made it through my screen like a dark ooze
 
2:45 AM
haha no for real
 
well then
...where are they
 
i dated a girl in my philosophy class
 
there is an overwhelming lack of girls swarming me, characteristic of the past two years
 
she's was a sweetheart
haha
what's wrong
hairstyle not figured out?
 
well, that's one thing
 
2:46 AM
get nervous?
 
and that
especially around girls (going to a boys high school did not help my ability to socialize with the opposite sex)
which is stupid, I'm nineteen
 
not stupid at all
i did not develop the ability to talk to girls until I was like 22
I was into World of Warcraft and playing on my computer all day before that
 
so I guess there is hope for me yet
 
I still play on my computer all night when I get home from work these days... haha, but I have a GF now
 
very nice
 
2:49 AM
the solution (not necessarily easy) is confidence, and you get it once you fix how you feel about yourself externally (appearance) and you fix how you feel internally (control the overthinking that always happens when you're near hot girls)
 
oh well that just about sums up the bulk of my problems nicely
of course that's a bit of an empty solution, the whole method's missing
"show your work" etc.
 
what do you mean?
 
well, the solution as you phrased it is the objective
the path toward achieving that has not exactly been made clear and is my primary stumbling block
 
1) find a simple way to make your hair not look silly, something somewhat simple but fashionable
2) if you are overweight, or super skinny, you will do yourself a big favor health-wise and girl-wise by getting in shape
 
I'm not exactly overweight (~155-160lbs) but I'm out of shape and I plan on working out this summer
 
2:53 AM
3) practice talking to people. Just go up to people on the subway/train, go on routes you never will use again, you will never see these people again. Strike up conversations with people. Not just hot girls, everyone. Be comfortable talking to people
 
my 'do is simple looking, not horrible
oh well that's where things get difficult
 
it always starts hard but i guarantee you after like 100 people, you will be MUCH more comfortable talking to people
then start doing it to just girls, don't have to be the hottest of the hot, but work your way up until no one makes you nervous anymore
and realize it's all just a big game -- the dating game
it's push and pull, you win some you lose some. You will get rejected, and you will have laughs with people
at the end of the day you lose nothing, but have EVERYTHING to gain
 
yeah, fair enough
 
in time, rejection should never have any affect on you. You will know your own personal awesomeness and if anyone turns that down you just laugh and move on
it's incredible how liberating that mindset is
I am DEFINITELY an INTJ, super super introvert by the books. But on the outside no one would guess that
I run the NASA Social Club at work lol
 
haha, nice
yeah I guess I need to work on my belief in my own personal awesomeness
 
3:06 AM
ever since i discovered i was a genius, that was the easy part for me
hahaha ;)
okcupid.com
there's that too :)
 
and how did you discover you were a genius
maybe I could try that
 
when I started acing my classes without studying for tests and watching kids around me struggle
 
was this in university?
 
ya
 
because I definitely had that experience in high school
in university I only get that with purely content-based classes
 
3:12 AM
but in all seriousness I'm not technically a genius, I'm only in the gifted range (134)
 
e.g. astronomy, linguistics, etc.
like, I got the highest mark in the intro linguistics class having studied about half an hour and stayed up until 3am the night before doing nothing in particular
but I can't say the same for my super theoretical honours math classes...
 
most everyone has strong subjects and weak subjects
our brains are all a bit different
i'm definitely not a quick math person
I have friends who can calculate math stuff in their head in like 5 seconds, me no way
 
yeah, I understand
 
i'm more depth, breath, rather than speed
give me an idea and I will dissect it for you down to every little detail
just give me a few hours to do it lol
 
haha
I'm afraid to take an IQ test because I'm afraid I'll get less than I hope/expect (which of course shouldn't really change anything)
 
3:16 AM
in the US we have the GRE test you take for college, I got a perfect verbal but math was only slightly above average
because I couldn't do the speed math they wanted...
 
ah, yeah
 
gonna watch a movie with the GF, catch ya later
 
have fun
 
 
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12:09 PM
@stoicfury Lincoln-Douglas
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3:10 PM
@meer2kat more colors? :)
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